Can anybody find me somebody to love?

Glee is my new favorite show.... I think its because I know exactly how it feels to be those kids.

lately I've been struggling with using the talent God gave me. Music is my passion, because it is im affected in many different ways, like sometime bursting into tears while watching a stupid TV show because the musical number is so powerful!




and i want somebody to love haha

takhamasak, and just not that into you!

Not much going on besides me running around with like a chicken with my head cut off lately! I'm so glad God has me where I am but boy am I busy!

in 180 groups we started a series called "Just not that into you" I'm enjoying it... It talks about how we all sometimes just don't feel like being "christian" or just arnt into God at the moment... more to come on that as the series progresses!

TAKHAMASAK started last night... I'm anxious to see how God moves out there at WTC! someone ask me why I decided to add something else to my plate... simple answer...

It is where I choose to serve!

I'm not paid to be out there , set up, tear down, fellowship and lead worship. I'm there because I want to be! I have a passion for the Youth and College Crowd so why not be there....

let me worry about how busy I am!

I have a new favorite song... I would really love to sing it one day ( if someone I know would learn the guitar chords and be the super worship leader I know he can be)

The Power of Your Name by Lincoln BrewsterI will live

To carry your compassion
to love a world thats broken
to be your hands and feet
I will give
With the life that I've been given
to go beyond religion
to see the world be changed
by the power of YOUR name

Stuff Christians Like--- Giving the Gift of going Second

I read this blog everyday! It's my daily source of Laughter and thought all at the same time! so I decided to share this with you! After reading this I tried hard to go first at most things and it sometimes worked... I just like the point he made!
www.stuffchristianslike.net


#502. Confessing "Safe Sins"
Have you ever been in a small group with people that confess safe sins? Someone will say, “I need to be honest with everyone tonight. I need to have full disclosure and submit myself in honesty. Like ODB from the Wu-Tang Clan, I need to give it to you raw!”
So you brace yourself for this crazy moment of authenticity and the person takes a deep breath and says … “I haven’t been reading my Bible enough.”Ugh, you, dirty, dirty sinner. I’m not even sure I can be in a small group with you any more. Not reading your Bible enough, that is disgusting.
And then once he’s gone someone else will catch the safe sin bug too and will say, “I need to be real too. I haven’t been praying enough.”Two of you in the same room? Wow, freak shows! I can barely stand it.
But what happens when people start confessing safe sins is that everyone else in the room starts concealing their real junk. I mean if I was surrounded by confessions like that in the eighth grade I would have instantly known I couldn’t follow the “not reading my Bible enough” guy with my own story:“Soooo, this weekend when it was snowing I told my parents I was going to the dump to sled but instead I was really just digging through a 200 foot mountain of warm trash looking for pornography.” And the same principle would have applied to me in my late 20s. I wouldn’t have been honest sharing my struggles with Internet porn if everyone else confessed their “safe enough for small group” sins.And that sucks.
It sucks that as broken as we all are, as desperate as we all are for a Savior, we feel compelled to clean ourselves up when we get around each other.But this blog has taught me something unbelievable. If I stop writing tomorrow, this will be the lesson I cling to the most.

When you go first, you give everyone in your church or your community or your small group or your blog, the gift of going second.It’s so much harder to be first. No one knows what’s off limits yet and you’re setting the boundaries with your words. You’re throwing yourself on the honesty grenade and taking whatever fall out that comes with it. Going second is so much easier. And the ease only grows exponentially as people continue to share. But it has to be started somewhere. Someone has to go first and I think it has to be us.We’re called to give the gift of second to the people in our lives. To live the truth, to share the truth, to be the truth.Let’s give the gift of going second.

Getting lost in a book!

so call me a nerd but sometimes I just like to et lost in a book. Curl up on the couch and read. I feel like the characters and I know how they are feeling and what they are going through. Maybe its because my mom was a librarian I just enjoy reading! Call me belle, a nerd geek, whatever you want! so I've been reading some Christian Romance novels lately and usually they are just feel good books. So the latest one I read was about this girl who didn't think she was good enough and a guy who didn't think he ws good enough... yada yada yada

then I read this

"so where does God come into play in this business? it seems to me He took a woman drawing water and gave her to Issac. He took the mother of our Savior and placed her safely in the arms of a lowly carpenter. Seems to me your limiting God on what he might have for you."

Woah I never looked at it that way before. I sat there defending Joesph he wasn't JUST a lowly Carpenter... but thats how other people saw him. it made me think of people saying oh shes just a teacher or hes just a rancher... GOD knows what he's doing. I love that I'm reminded of that in simple little ways like from a book I got from the half price bin at mardel because I'm cheap......

Changing Spiritual Gifts?

So I took a spiritual gift test in high school, The results
Mercy and Music..

It was brought up today and I got distracted at my desk and decided to do one. I was curious to see if they had changed. I'm also pretty sure its the same book I used oh so long ago.

boy was I surprised. They changed! Maybe not changed but more developed and shifted.

so once second in line is now first
Music- The gift of music is the unique capacity to use the vehicle of music to share one's relationship with God and to lead others to worship God. Essentially it is the ability to communicate God's love through music.

Next up and making its first appearance
Exhortation- the ability to bring out the best in others by means of encouraging, challenging, comforting, and guiding. Essentially it is the gift of counseling others to become all that God wants them to be.

also in close behind those are
Leadership and Mercy

Funny how things change as you grow up and find out who you are in Christ!

Jumble of thoughts

My mind is full of thoughts today.. so im just going to blog about them and see if my head clears

so....

I need to learn to play the Guitar....... and write music. Being around people who just pick up guitars and bust out songs makes my brain go. man why can't I learn to do that.
While im on the subject of music. I for some reason have been reserved about it lately... maybe the feeling of inadequacy? I don't know but I want it to go away

things at work are changing and different but Im happy and I know that God has placed me there for a reason!

I would really like some new shoes. if you know me its a shocker that I think I need to invest in some cute heals to go with my dressier clothes. which makes me think... I need dressier clothes

I miss these girls (+ devin)

I don't like being a grown up sometimes. Maybe its not the being a grown up, its not having a heart like a child and being oblivious to the heartbreak in life.

so I'm sitting here and my pandora is going... pandora is my friend... I even think God speaks to me through Pandora sometimes... what I need to hear the moment I'm down, just comes on and i feel better! YAY
Pandora just played a wonderful song!

If you took time out of your day to read this im sorry! Just my way of clearing my head!

Not me Monday/ I love sundays.

Yesterday was great! I love Sundays. I was sorta afraid I would want to come to church since I spend every day here but despite a horrible fever and sore throat sat night I bounced out of bed ready as ever. Granted I felt horrible but I was excited!
It's been my dream since I was younger to sing on praise team. I get to now:) ...me excited.....no not me.....Its hard for me to figure the harmonies so wuickly but I'm learning slowly! I love my sunday school class. They just make me laugh and smile and remember why I make some choices I do. They are such caring people and someone I fit in with all the married older folks. It shouldn't matter about fitting in at church, but I've learned that there is still a problem with acceptance somewhere where it should be key!

Lots of things are changing! Bunches of people moving. Its going to be weird, You get used to seeing people almost everyday and then by the end of the month most of them will be gone! God has brought these people into my life and I'm extremly sad to see them go :( Oh well Abilene is that far away I guess.

Have you ever met someone and felt like you have known them your whole life? This happend to me recently... more to come on that later!