St. johns wort

Dear St Johns Wort,
I should have taken your name as a warning, no one should take a medicine that has the word "wort" in it. Yet I'm stupid and I did. I appreciate you not having accruate warning lables on the kind of damage you can do to ones body, thus allowing me to spend a week in bed hardly being able to move. My hair really needed mass amounts of thinning also so once again thank you for helping with that. I'm sure that my neurologist would extend his gratitude to you as well...
Thanks for giving me an interesting week...

Exciting things in my life lately!

skye and I went to DFW to the Lady Antebellum Concert! It was amazing!This is our chi-wienie Bella. She's awesome and provides for hours of entertainment!

The voice within that I didn't know I had.....

When I was younger I couldn't wait to be in youth. I wanted to sing on praise team in the FLC, but when that time came I was told I wasn't good enough. The end. I never ask to sing in church again.

about a year ago God started some major work on me. One of the things he worked on was me using my gift that He gave me to Glorify him. so I slowly started singing again...

well yesterday I faced one of my greatest fears...



THE FLC
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It seems petty to some poeple that I would be nervous to sing across the street for the youth but not for big church, or even across the street at the methodest church with a bunch of people I don't know.

That bulding was assosaited with some of my deepest scars so for me to sing over there was terrifying.

Sat night while waiting to practice I got down on my knees and just let go of all of my fears, I didn't feel anything really so I was like oh well, im hungry. We left to go eat then got back and set up ect... all the while me feeling uneasy and on the verge of running from the building, i knew I had given it to God but thats not an instant easy button.

We sang a few songs, then we got to one of my new favorites. I shut my eyes and let go . I realize then that I had just reached deep down past all of the crud and pulled out that little girl who wanted to sing oever there...... after doing so jordan and ben were just like " welp I think you should do that alone" it jus tfelt so good.
Ben later told me if I sang like a pansy him and courtney would come after me... granted I kinda sang like a pansy on sunday morning but it didn't matter anymore.

My joy carried over to big church were I kept wanting to dance... Its so hard to keep it inside once you when through the trouble of letting it out!

with all that rambling being said, I don't know if I will do it again.

With Gods help I reached into my heart and let out the voice that I never believed I had...

blog challenge

So last Monday I was having lunch with Courtney and we were discussing our blogs. I was telling her how much i liked just getting everything out in the open even if no one reads it. So I'm going to try really hard to blog a few times a week!

Busy Busy Busy

Lately i've found myself being extremly busy! So busy ihave had to schedule phone calls with my mom and friends. Its sad to watch your phone ring and not be able to answer it because you know you will only have 30 secs to talk which isn't even long enough to say "im sorry im working, I know its 6:00 but yes I'm still working can I call you later? oh well later meaning tonight. oh 10:00 is to late? well thats what time I get home.. no no tomorrow is worse.. how about we talk from 7:30- 8:05 in the morning.. thanks love you bye...

Mirror, mirror on the wall

So Mardel was having a sale on books... a $1.00 book sale...

I picked one up as a joke then read the back!

Mirror, Mirror, on the wall...

for most of us, it's impossible to look in the mirrow and feel as if we can ever measure up to th images of perfection surronding us. But we try anyway, don't we?

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In Journey to Healthy Living: Freesom from body image and food issues, we'll explore what it means to discover that your body is not something to be loathed, but that it is a wonderful gift from God. A Masterpeice. We'll help you identify your eating and excersise habits and patterns and challenge you to uncover the root of your struggles with food and your body so that you can learn to live a life of freedom.



so I will read the book and let you know if it worked.... those of you who know me real well, are thinking im crazy with my posts about running 5k's (btw my mother issued a challenge) and reading God health books...

5K

This weekend I went out to watch Jim ( Worship Leader) and Savahna ( Best Friend) run in the 5K! I then realized that half of my sunday school class was running, then I saw that my two "bosses" at the church were running. I felt like a lazy giant. I was the one taking pictures on the street corner sweating from watching them run.

I decided enough was enough. Next year I will run the 5k... some of you are thinking thats a whole year away.... its going to take me a whole year to be able to run that! but I'm going to do it.

so... If you see me walking to jogging around town, wave or honk or something because I'm going to need all the encouragement I can get!