Hello Pavement

I have completely failed at my blog every day for 30 days. I then felt so guilty for not blogging I didn’t want to at all. But I figured I share some adventures in Sarah Land!

I’ve been running/jogging/walking!!! Today is day 6 of getting up an hour early every morning and
exercising! This is the start of week 4 of No Sweet Tea and week 8 of no Dr. Pepper!

I’d really like to do a 5k, I’m thinking of the Run for you lives Zombie 5k in December! I know that’s a ways away but I’m gonna need some serious training!

 

So this morning I’m doing my thing Jamming to Mandisa’s “Good Morning” Song and was running. Full stride running not my normal half-pace jog. Full blown running when the next thing I know I’m on the ground. Right-side, face down on the ground. I guess my legs said “no more”. “You’re too fat for this” “Screw you enjoy the ground” I had sore legs all day yesterday and this morning they felt a little jellyish but I felt like I should keep going! I guess not! Helllooooo Pavement! I'm okay, Mostly super sore. Some of you may know but for those of you who don't  know "Big people fall hard"

It was the funniest thing to happen in a while! To make matters worse I realized I was near the church with surveillance cameras. I’m thinking about calling and asking if its on camera and if so can I have it.

I’m not sure how much weight I’ve lost because I’m scared to look at the scale! If I were to get on the scale and not see a good number I might be so discouraged I’d quit. So I’m going to try the no scale thing. I hate talking about weight, weight loss and health but I had to share about my falling adventures this morning!

I will leave you with some fun pictures from easter!, Yes We are holding a baby donkey!

Dream job + 5 passions

Once again I'm a total slacker and didn't blog yesterday. In my defense I was way busy mowing, vaccuming and cleaning the floors. My aunts been on vacation and I  know that if I came home to a clean house it would make me feel good so because I cant pay her a ton I try to do little things.

I woke up super early this morning and decided to go for a jog. Kinda scary because it was still dark. I'm just no too comfortable running in the dark. oh well I should get used to it because it felt good! This weekend I went to the Avenue, my second favorite plus size store, I official dropped a pants size! I was proud of my self..... My weight yoyos so bad but still I was stoked! I'm working on being a healthier sarah and seem to be on the uphill grind :)

So My hopes and Dreams blog challance

Day 7- What is your dream job and why?
Mine is being on Broadway. Has been since I learned how to walk, dance, and sing.... practally at the age of 3. Now my dream job would be being the boss. I feel like I need to be the boss in order to be happy somewhere but we'll see. who knows maybe I'll be one of those "fat actresses" on broadway. Incase you don't know a teacher once told me there was only room for so many fat actresses on broadway and those spots were filled. crushed my world- so I turned my life to ag and that year was the best poultry judger in the state. A state title was uber important back then :)

Day 8- 5 Passions

I don't know what they are... Music has always been one but the thought of having is hard for me. Is family one? I'm passionate about my family, and Christ.. duh I guess I'll be a loser and just list the first 5 things that I love the most.

1. Jesus
2. Music
3. Family
4. Food
5. Travel




In other news.....
This morning when I was running a song came in which the chorus says" the power that raised Jesus Christ from the grave is the power that lives in you".... Well at hillsong they say this alot, once a friend said the power that raised Jesus from the dead lives in you therefor you have the Power to not eat the cookie. At the time it made me so mad but this morning, as I was trying not so kill over and die while running, I got it. Sounds like dodgy doctrine but I get it now!

Day 5 and 6!

Day 5


Five things that make me the happiest right now!

1. Food- Health Low calorie good food.

2. My car- I love to drive

3. The mail.

4. Netflix

5. My new church.









Day 6

Hardest thing I’ve ever had to experience is heart break.

I know the point of this blog challenge is to open up and share but I’m just not in the mood. I feel like poo for missing day 5 so I combined the two. I’m currently at work, yes on a Saturday, and I have so much to do! So I figured I’d pause and blog to clear my head, but then I had a hard time thinking of things that really made me happy so I’m back to being blah.

Day 4- hey 16yr old me!

4. List 10 things you would tell your 16 year-old self, if you could.


This was crazy hard for me. so here it goes!

1. Your body is made differently then others.  You be who God made you!
2. You may be single but you will travel the world!
3. You've been in love. Its worth the wait and the heartbreak.
4. NEVER stop singing.
5. Take care of your speeding tickets!
6. please stay in school no matter what happens or how you feel like you can't!
7. Cherish your friendships, God places people in your life for a reason.
8. RUN learn to run!
9. Don't quit dance
10. There is life outside of Snyder, but it will always be "home"

Day 3- and some random thoughts

Day 3- Describe your relationship with your parents!


I have a good relationship with my parents. Like all children there are time I want to punch both of them but all in all my relationships with them is okay.

Dad- I miss him like crazy. Growing up only seeing him a few times a year was hard. I’d miss him but wouldn’t call because I didn’t want to bug him. Now I just don’t care and will blow up his phone for silly things! Back then my mom would do the “throw the phone” technique. She would dial the number and throw the phone then I had a choice. I could pick it up and tell him how much I missed them or just hang out. 9 times out of 10 I would pick up the phone and talk! Being an adult now a days its hard to hop on the plane and go see him. Hopefully now with Southwest going from ATX to ATL that will be easier! I’ve always been a Daddys girl though!

Mom- We are JUST alike. This can cause some high flying emotions but as long as we aren’t crying things are super. She gave up so much for me growing up and made sure that I could do anything I ever wanted to do. I can never thank her for all she’s done for me. I hate that she’s so far away in Canada now but thankful for Skype and such! She’s still my best friend!


….I’m the spitting image of my father, and my momma is my biggest fan.



Update on the insomnia. Im so sick of my headboard. Its beatuiful but it squeaks and bumps the wall and eats my pillows its just a mess. I got so frustraed last night I just took it off. BAM I slept like a baby :) acutally that was most likely due to the  allergy medicine but still.

I'm craving steak somthing fierce and and so tired of drinking water. Yay trying to stay healthy.

Day 2- Three Fears

Day 2!

Fear 1- Crowds.


I panic. Call it social anxiety disorder, claustrophobic, uncomfortable or whatever you want but I don’t do crowds.

Fear 2- Never being a mom.

I want to be a wife and mommy more than anything. I know that God has his perfect plan and even if I never have children of my own, I can still be a light in a child’s life. Maybe that goes hand in hand with dying alone…

Fear 3- Whatever is living in my attic.

It could be a small, it could be large, it could be a rodent, it could be a ghost, a human, and anything but I’m the only one who hears it. And its not OKAY

JJ Heller- What Love really Means

He cries in the corner where nobody sees

He’s the kid with the story no one would believe

He prays every night, “Dear God won’t you please...

Could you send someone here who will love me?”

Who will love me for me

Not for what I have done or what I will become

Who will love me for me

‘Cause nobody has shown me what love

What love really means, what love really means

Her office is shrinking a little each day

She’s the woman whose husband has run away

She’ll go to the gym after working today

Maybe if she was thinner then he would’ve stayed

And she says…

Who’ll love me for me?

Not for what I have done or what I will become

Who will love me for me?

‘Cause nobody has shown me what love

What love really means, what love really means

He’s waiting to die as he sits all alone

He’s a man in a cell who regrets what he’s done

He utters a cry from the depths of his soul

“Oh Lord, forgive me, I want to go home”

Then he heard a voice somewhere deep inside

And it said, “I know you’ve murdered

And I know you’ve lied

And I have watched you suffer all of your life

And now that you’ll listen, I’ll tell you that I...”

I will love you for you

Not for what you have done or what you will become

I will love you for you



 

I heard this song for the first time last night! Cried like a baby. I feel as if everyone has once been in a number of those situations at different periods of their lives. Even the prison, we all live in our own personal prisons. Just an amazing song about what love really means. Breath taking.