New kids on the church block...

hello all!
I feel like I've been under a rock this weekend. I was doggy sitting precious Hadley for my friend Jade so I wasn't near my computer or Ipod! Goodness I didn't realize how much of an Internet addict I am!

I had just a blah down week last week and was looking so forward to Church. My friend Leta was feeling the same way to so we chalked it up to just Satan getting us down. Which meant maybe God has something awesome in store for us! Church started out great and I was rocking some awesome hair. Leta who thought she was going to be late made it on time and we were ready to Worship.

Then I heard it.

 Something I fear.

The lady behind me turned to someone after moving and said " I just can't see around her" I immediately started my  "don't cry" "she meant above you" you're super tall' "DO NOT CRY IN CHURCH SARAH" I was slowing shrinking and trying not to get up and leave.  I know I'm big and that people can't see around me. On a high school trip in New York I had a teacher use me as a Wind Break most of the week.
but shouldn't you be able to go to church and not feel ashamed,  judged, or out of place with how you look. Shouldn't you just be safe in the Lords house.
I love the back because I don't have to deal with so many people, plus theres room! But with the back comes distractions so Leta have found us a happy little third row side compromise thing. Its so hard being the new kid in church. I'm thankful to have a friend in Leta and us to navigate our way through a new experience together, but this almost made me run.  Run home to my bed and a bag of potato chips.

I know that I'm overreacting and shouldn't have read into her comment but it was within earshot and just stung. I'm trying so hard to become healthier and happier but goodness I felt like that set me back so far. Why can't I just trust God with my body and health. Am I calling God a liar when I look in the mirror and say "woah I look like a fat cow".  The Bible says I'm made in His image, beautiful and wonderfully made infact.
Why can't I just let go and let God help me. I've always said HE will help me when time to lose weight and HE is so why am I so upset because someone at church can't see "around me"

Luckily we started singing The Stand which is an immediate lose Sarah in Worship song!
The message was great and just what I needed to hear!


An akward incident at lunch made me realize that yes I am new but I have to treat people the way I want to be treated. If I want friends I can make them. I can invite people to lunch. I can have parties and invite poeple. I can seek out people hiding in the corner. I can make sure that no one feels the way we did on Sunday. I can pray that God opens our eyes to situations that we can be used in. That God would open doors and opportunities for Leta and I to serve and become involved and meet more people. To be a light to an odd ball just looking for some comfort from the Lord. Austin is a lonely place sometimes and I can't just be the poor fat girl in the corner, sad because the cool kids didn't talk to me I'm not 13 anymore.... I can be a leader, I can use the strengths that the Lord has given me to encourage and love on others. So can Leta and together we could see some awesomeness. Satan wanted Sunday to be awful for us. He wanted us to leave and not come back.... I thought about it for awhile even. Thought okay time to find another church but NO. I like my new home and I'm not going to let mindless comments and oblivious people stop me from serving the Lord.

That was close!

Today is going to be close. Its okay if you gain. You know you didn't work as hard this week. I told my self these things all the way to work this morning!

It was a hard thing typing all my numbers in my spreadsheet this morning. I was just begging I didn't gain!

YAY for inches lost!

 Next week I wont slack as much because this ashamed feeling is not fun!

Anyways

Hips-1.5
Thigh-1
Waist 1.5
Neck-.5
5 inches lost!

Super stoked about the neck loss... yall know how much I loath my chins.
Is it bad I'm craving a Mcdonalds breakfast or a buritto? I realize rewarding myself with food like a dog partly got me here in the first place... oh well. I spy a fruit bar :)

I'm ready to tackle today with a new attitude!

Attitude Adjustment

I was just not in the mood to smile today. I hate the way that sounds but I just wasn't. Not in the mood to act like everything is hunky dory and I'm in love with running when all I'd like to do is curl up and eat a pizza!

My aunt and I had a great afternoon of house hunting and junk yesterday but on the way home from Buda the flood gates just opened.... and they haven't seemed to stop. Besides my weight that's one thing that I wish I could change, I would give anything to be able to control my emotions.

After a massive mistake at work I had to send myself home for an attitude adjustment.  I remember when my mother used to tell me this when I as younger, it was always so negative but thats all i could think of today. I was scolding myself saying snap out of it darn it!
I just had to make today better. I prayed, cooked a slightly high in calorie but yummy lunch, and then jammed all the way back to work. It seemed to really help. Some days I don't get to leave so on days when I can I think I should start trying.

I'm dreading tomorrows measurements. I've just been in such a blah mood this week that I haven't done as well with my workouts and eating as I have the past 2 weeks.  I know that's normal but still... I'm disappointed. This is a hard road but one I'm committing to, so we shall see!

Maybe a long walk will do me good!

Bacon Bacon Bacon.....

If you’ve known me for long you know my love of food. Especially meat, and as a southern girl I have a special place in my heart for sausage and bacon. Now I have done good with pounds of sausage from my g-pa in our freezer but bacon is another story. I remember the first time my aunt and I were making bacon she was like you can’t eat the whole pound… watch me.

I woke up this morning around 2 craving bacon. It smelt like bacon was being held in front of my face. I’m usually a pretty light sleeper but had taken Advil pm last night because I was just so so sore from working out. I decided the bacon smell was just a dream and went back to sleep.

I woke up around 5 because I was in a bacon commercial for dogs, bacon.. bacon… bacon… bacon……

I slept through my “walk alarm” this morning I think because I was dreaming of my Memaw’s breakfast which is most likely all my calories for the week. After feeling like crap for not exercising I finally decided to drag my rear out of bed. While brushing my teeth I realized that the bacon smell was REAL and set off into the kitchen toothbrush, spit and all. I see a clean kitchen but then spot the bacon press on the stove. Really I thought? She made bacon with the old timey bacon press? But no sigh of life until I open the fridge!

I FOUND BACON

BACON

BACON

BACON

I immediately return to the bathroom to finish my teeth brushing in hopes that there were some crumbs I could have. Once back in the kitchen I see a note that says,” this is for my potluck tonight but the extras are wrapped in the paper towel….”

SHE KNOWS ME TOO WELL.

Not only did she leave me some it was a perfect 250 calories of heaven.

That started my day out right. I got to work and was asked to go pick up a vehicle from text dot. Thank goodness my Dad taught me how to start a diesel. I made a fool of myself, sitting there for 10 mins not being able to figure out how to take off the parking break. I was in a big 13 passenger van but then had flash back of rodeos with my dad and him stomping on something! DING DING DING the parking break was off and so was I. Only a few curb checks later I was safely back to my desk ready for begin the work day.

Weight is so Werid

Weight is a funny thing.

I weight 1 lb less NOW than what I did in this picture.
( yes I got on the scale and was down but still don't like the scale)



Before Grad Ball Nov 210



I don't look at all like this right now though, its still an encouragement that I might one day look like this again. I tried on the dress and it fit great but I still didn't look like this, maybe its the hair, or happiness level..... who knows
When I gained my Australia weight back I guess it came back in different places. I was so sick that weight just fell off of me. Then came flying back on.

I'm starting to see my face change and can pull off pants without unbuttoning them, which I shouldn't brag about but still. Someone told me I looked comfy today,  and I'm in one of my nicer outfits. I guess my clothes are fitting differently too.

In other news......
I'm mentally exhausted from this weekend and just needed a pick me up. I listened to a sermon from my home church in snyder that just boosted me right up! check out Dave's Run the Race sermon online if you get a chance! Well worth it.

Inches LOST

I cried myself to sleep last night because all I wanted was a cheeseburger. I settled for some broccoli.


Woke up this morning and did my Friday morning Measurements. I figure I can do them every Friday so if I gain, I can’t be too depressed because it’s Friday! I was running late so I figured I’d wait until I got to work to plug them into my spreadsheet. Much to my surprise it said I’ve lost

8.5 in.   On top of my 6.5 last
15 TOTAL!

I can not sit still and just want to run around the dealership screaming "I've lost some inches" like a crazy person.
Waist-3
Middle-4
Hips-1
Neck-.5 - (most excited about this one lets be real. my chins need to go)

***Disclaimer**

Some of you must be like WOW that’s so much in such a short period of time ect… I’ve got a TON of inches to loose. Plus some are from random not so noticable spots. I can see my face changin. I can tell some of my clothing is fitting better but I have a long long ways to go! I will hit a plateau soon and this will be a battle!

 For now I'm going to rejoice and when the day comes that I stop loosing I will just work harder!

Its funny because its true!



I, Sarah Victoria Carpenter, will run a 5k!!

I, Sarah Victoria Carpenter, will run a 5k  in 6 months.

In 2009 my friend Savahna ran her first 5k and I was inspired. After watching so many people from my church and hometown run, I decided maybe I could to. I've tried the couch to 5k app a few times since but I'm not a runner. Never have been, even when I was a tiny ballerina, I hated running.

Recently a friend of mine decided to focus on his health and made a decision for life change. He inspired me to get off the couch and lace up my running shoes. I had to make a change. I began praying about what I would run or how I would change my life for the better. Gods strength is the only reason I can wake up and put on my shoes in the mornings, evenings, or afternoons, some days I do all three. I've always said that when it was time to drop some weight hat God would help me. Well folks, It's time!

 I'm about a month in and can only run for about a one minuet, but I'm proud that I can even run that.

I've prayed and thought about what 5k's I want to run. 

 If your around these areas during these dates, I'd love to have your support!

 Want to run with me? That would be even greater!

This is going to be a long road but one I'm so excited to do.

 I can't even imagine what it will feel like to cross the finish line!

 2012 5k's(you can find the links to these on the 5k page)

 Houston's Run For Recovery- tentative!

 9/12

White Buffalo Days 5k in Snyder

 10/6

Turkey Trot in Austin
Thanksgiving

Run for your lives ZOMBIE 5k- Austin

12/15