"I will try again tomorrow"

Courage does not always roar. Sometimes it is a quiet voice at the end of the day, saying.."I will try again tomorrow."

 

I stole this from my friend Jess's facebook.... I'm currently in Snyder fighting the urge to get in the car and run away to my bed in Austin. I feel defeated, I'd forgotten my love/hate relationship with my hometown. I'm struggling with my depression/anxiety being caused from my crazy hormones and female issues. It just makes it hard to stay calm and not freakout about silly thing :)

Stephanie my childhood friend gets married today! Out of the 6 PHRATS girls and Abby ( everyone I graduated with) all are married but me and corie! Corie's got her life in order though. I told myself before walking into a room full of people whom I haven't seen in a while " Sarah no your not married, yes they are happy and have babies, but you've been to Australia, you've lived and have a very blessed different life than them. Your not better than them and they aren't better than you... your life is just ... different. " 

I realized that its me whos disappointed in myself for not being in Australia anymore. I know I didn't fail..... Gods plans were just not my plans... I need to figure out what God wants me to do next. I need to find my "climbing partners" and jump back in the ball game and find what makes me happy. My friend ask me the other night what makes me happy and I point blank said I have no clue anymore. I know what i should say but I honestly don't know... 

soooo 

I know that Spanish Inn makes me happy... especially when I'm with my aunt peggy! I also know that watching my childhood BFF walking down the asle in her fairytale wedding will make me happy. I had a blast on the way here driving and jamming to my musicals!

soo

I'm being courageous in saying no I'm not happy but I'll try again tomorrow :) 

Things I've learned in Traffic

I, Sarah Victoria Carpenter, am not cut out for commuting. I hate traffic!

I was having a hard time figuring out why I'm so so so exhausted this week.  Yes I'm standing on my feet all day but I should be used to it by now .... Then it hit me! I add about 2 hours to my day tensed up in traffic. .... it took me 2 hours to get home the other day... two hours! I know many people do this on a daily bases and I salute y'all!

So here are a few things I've learned this week.

• Many people here in Austin release their stress but smoking a bong when gridlocked on Mopac.... I've seen it twice now.
• Don't be afraid to put your car in park and take off your shoes.
•  It always comes in handy to have snacks or a drink specifically for your car ride.
  Sarah + Traffic+ Hunger= HULK
• its nice to have your cell phone charged so that you may talk... not text but talk about how wonderful your day and ride home was...
• Also you should rememeber that just because someone is in the exit only lane does not mean they are actually going to exit... they are just speeding around you to get 6 cars ahead and then come to a complete stop!

Mom says books on tape work so I'm going to try that out

Do you have any good tips for commuting or sitting in traffic for hours a day?

Mermaid or Whale

 

 I saw this on my Facebook feed this tonight. I instantly wanted to copy it and print it out to hang on my mirror.  I figured I'd blog about it. It seems as thought my life is so full of drama and crap lately... I feel myself wanting to sleep and disappear to never never land aka sydney! This brought such a needed smile to my face so I hope it does yours to :)

 

A while back, at the entrance of a gym, there was a picture of a very thin and beautiful woman. The caption was "This summer, do you want to be a mermaid or a whale?"

The story goes, a woman (of clothing size unknown) answered the following way:

"Dear people, whales are always surrounded by friends (dolphins, seals, curious humans), they are sexually active and raise their children with great tenderness.
They entertain like crazy with dolphins and eat lots of prawns. They swim all day and travel to fantastic places like Patagonia, the Barents Sea or the coral reefs of Polynesia.
They sing incredibly well and sometimes even are on cds. They are impressive and dearly loved animals, which everyone defend and admires.

Mermaids do not exist.

But if they existed, they would line up to see a psychologist because of a problem of split personality: woman or fish?
They would have no sex life and could not bear children.
Yes, they would be lovely, but lonely and sad.
And, who wants a girl that smells like fish by his side?

Without a doubt, I'd rather be a whale.

At a time when the media tells us that only thin is beautiful, I prefer to eat ice cream with my kids, to have dinner with my husband, to eat and drink and have fun with my friends.

We women, we gain weight because we accumulate so much wisdom and knowledge that there isn't enough space in our heads, and it spreads all over our bodies.
We are not fat, we are greatly cultivated.
Every time I see my curves in the mirror, I tell myself: "How amazing am I ?! "

(The girl on the picture is French model Tara Lynn)

By: Delphine Fieberg

Wired for Wranglers?

I'm sorry but Country Singers shouldn't paint on their pants...
What happened to the days when cowboys and country stars wore nice wranglers or cinch jeans?

I was watching Ellen today and just didn't care for Luke Bryan's jeans... granted im the loser at home on the couch but still... come on .. your not Mick Jagger or some other 80's star in Tights

Maybe its just me but

This

 Is way more attractive than

This

Just sayin... 

maybe its in my genes... 

I could just be wired for wrangers...

Not me Monday

 

   

Welcome to Not Me! Monday! This blog carnival was created by MckMama. You can head over to < target="_blank" href="http://www.mycharmingkids.net">her blog to read what she and everyone else have not been doing this week. This hopefullly won't be my last "not me" Monday post.

I did not have an interview at a lingerie shop today, nope not me. I also didn't do great at the interview because I could sale to the "average or plus size customers" HAHA I also did not feel guilty for even interviewing at this place, but I could be a light anywhere I work. I think the bird and the dog are tired of me  "shining my light from the house"

I  did not cry for about 3 hours today. I feel like I'm in a stupid depression hurts commercial- please don't freakout about this statement.......if you know me you know my hormones are crazy wacked and im totally okay.

I most Definallty didn't come home from the gym and eat more double stuffed Oreo. Maybe I'll go back in a few hours!

Overall its been a not so great Monday! Things are looking up though!

Cheeky's brow blog!

I was super excited to read this on cheeky's blog the other day! Much to my surprise finally my bushy eye brows are "in". Check it out and book online to get your eyebrows looking great!

 

Tweeze No More!

Posted on September 21, 2011

Looking younger might have just gotten easier without all of the hassle. No more sitting in the car tweezing your brows in the mirror because that’s where you get the best light. Leave those hairs alone because lush, bushy eyebrows are “in”! Let your brows enhance your eyes and face naturally. Sometimes having a sharp, precise shape to your brows looks a little harsh and may make you look a little more aged. Instead, opt to have a softer, more natural look this fall and make your own conclusions. Don’t get me wrong, you still need to groom your brows so they don’t grow out of control and turn into a uni-brow, just manage them appropriately.

Bad Brows:

Great Brows:

Let us help you get those perfect brows that will enhance your natural beauty! To make even more of a statement you can always tint your lashes and brows to enhance the natural color of your hair. This really makes your eyes pop!

Yards and Bones

I HATE YARD WORK

My mom always says "you don't hate anything, you strongly dislike it"
 well I really hate Yard work.    

I've had this daunting list of things to do to help out my aunt.

<<<<<<< read with a smile on your face >>>>>> 
I was informed that this seemed rude. I love living here and because I'm a total loser at the moment I really don't mind having things to do, I even said "make me a list" I realize that "taking me to the grocery store" is just as annoying as yardwork. I just wanted to clarify that this in no way was negative against my aunt or her list, I'm acutally in hopes that she will leave me another one next week :)
I've beasted on the list but left all the yard work for the last day thinking maybe it i wished hard enough it would go away.  The second to the last thing on the list says "rake out grass ect out of flower beds..." I started it the other day but it just made me so mad... its not grass its 2 ft long weeds with roots and annoyance. so I worked for about an hour day before yesterday and just made a mess. I set my alarm this morning to get up early and work while it was cool so I couldn't use the fact that Im allergic to heat ( like my mom) as an excuse. After about 40 mins of work its still a MESS. I HATE YARD WORK.


Speaking of yard work, my aunt and I majorly worked on the back yard a few weeks ago. It looks great! Jingles had been spending more time outside lately so I though he was just happy to have his yard back without being eaten by leaves.  I had a weird day yesterday so last night I was super excited to watch Grey's and lay on the couch ( even though I'm jobless I don't lay on the couch all day ) anyways I was laying here and see Jingles come in with a GIANT BONE. It was about a foot long which is way Giant for Jingles. I yelled and got a towel picked it up and send a picture to my aunt. I wanted to make sure this wasn't his "long lost favorite toy" but deep down I knew that he was no way allowed to have this.

If you know me you know I watch way to much TV, one of my favorite shows being BONES. If you've seen bones you know they start the same way every time, freaky things happen and you find bones.
While freaking out with my aunt on the phone I kept telling her if Jingles brings in a skull I was not going to be a happy camper! Of course she calmed me down but still...... I dreamed of bones in the yard all night. All I could think about was raking in the yard and finding a dead body.....

So If you can tell me what kind of bone this is it would help greatly with my metal state :)
I know its not a human one but you have to admit, you might freak out too!



Imoff to do the last thing on my list- "Search and Destroy all  McDonalds/Sonic cups!" My aunt is a funny funny lady