Thursday, July 25, 2013

"Slimming Down Sarah"

Someone told me the other day that I would never have my life under control unless I got control of my food issues.  They meant it out of love and I’ve thought a lot about it. 

When I look at the title of my blog “Slimming Down Sarah” I keep thinking there are so many other things I need to slim down before I tackle my weigh issues. My mental health is failing as much ( if not more) as my physical at the moment, as in there is no room to obsess about eating a cookie when I’m just trying to make it to the next day.  I’ve got to slim down some of the baggage I’ve been carrying around for years. I have to slim down some anger and resentment towards people in my life. I have to slim down the people in my life that do me nothing but harm. I’ve got to get some things in order before I can actually be ready to diet make a lifestyle change.

Before I left for Georgia I had a coupon for California Pizza Kitchen that you could win $100,000. When someone asked what I would do with the money the first thing I said was weight loss surgery. Get skinny then move to Australia.  How horrible is that? I didn’t think car, purchase a house or get out of debt first. 
All I could think of was skinny.

 Because if I was skinny then someone would want to marry me, and how could anyone love this fat, crazy, ball of emotion.

Its thoughts like those that I have to “Slim Down” if I’m ever going to go down the healthy path the Lord has laid out for me . Having a few cokes, or cookies, or Alfredo isn’t how I got 100+ lbs overweight…. It’s spending the past 10 years hating myself for reasons I can’t explain ( and tiny tiny bit of genetics)


In other news…

Some of you know I’m back in Austin. While I’m super proud of myself for trying something new I know that Georgia isn’t the place for me right now.

Sunday, July 7, 2013

Georgia- Rain

So it's been a rainy week here in Georgia. As in it pretty much hasn't stopped.  I'm at a rodeo in Alabama sitting in the truck watching it rain and rain some more. I feel bad for laughing at the cowboys getting their trucks stuck in the mud- dad got stuck the other night and of course I got the giggles which didn't help the situation. But it was hilerious, I would love to be surrounded by cowboys covered in mud- sadly it's my dad and bro not mr mccowboy. Seriously I saw my dream man but didn't have enough guts to ask dad or will who he was and if he was married so I figured I'd admire from afar!

I'm also learning that as much as I wanted to marry a musical loving, God fearing cowboy I'm not cut out for this type of life. Some women are but I for sure am not.

I'm still not sure why God brought m out here, other than to see family. I'm still struggling with my choices and life. I know now that God isn't going to make it easy but he is wooing me. It sounded funny to me to but I can feel Him drawing me closer to Him. I had a horrible migraine yesterday and spent most of the day reading, praying or sleeping and came across 
this verse
“He is wooing you from the jaws of distress to a spacious place free from restriction......(Job 36:16 NIV)

What an awesome verse!
I have no clue what tomorrow will bring and am currently just trying to make it a day at a time but am taking comfort in the fact that I have a God who hears my prayers and loves me enough to let me go through storms of this life to come out stronger.

So I leave you with some pictures....

That's my brother and  dad you can't tell much by the picture but they look so so much alike!