Friday, January 22, 2010

Ready to Love again!

Ready to Love again

Lady A :)

Seems I was walking in the wrong direction

I barely recognized my own reflection,

not Scared of love, but scared of life alone

Seems I've been playin' on the safe side baby

Building walls around my heart to save me, oh

But it's time for me to let it go.

Yeah, I'm ready to feel now

No longer am I 'fraid of the fall down

It must be time to move on now

Without the fear of how it might end

I guess I'm ready to love again.

Just when you think that love will never find you

You run away but still it's right behind you,

ohIt's just something that we can't control

Yeah, I'm ready to feel now

No longer am I 'fraid of the fall down

It must be time to move on now

Without the fear of how it might end

I guess I'm ready to love again.

So come and find me

I'll be waiting up for you

I'll be holding out for you tonight


I'm ready to feel now

No longer am I 'fraid of the fall down

It must be time to move on now

Without the fear of how it might end

I guess I'm ready, ready to love again.

Friday, January 15, 2010

This made my day

a friend sent this to me!

I was in the restaurant yesterday when I suddenly realized I
desperately needed to pass gas.

The music was really,/_ REALLY_/ loud, so I timed my gas with the
beat of the music.

After a couple of songs, I started to feel better. I finished my
coffee, and noticed that everybody was staring at me....

Then I suddenly remembered that I was listening to my iPod.

Thursday, January 14, 2010

The Desert Song- My motivation

I left the church last night in tears. I'd been there for 14 hours and was psychically, mentally, and spiritually exhausted.

I guess in my head I thought that after Passion it would become easier. That I would have an automatic joy about getting up and coming to work to mess with all the junk. Don't get me wrong I love my job but we are all human and going through a time of uncertainty without key players in our leadership. Luckily the people we do have are wonderful leaders who do everything they can to make this time run smoothly.

i first heard this song at the hillsong concert and it brought me to tears (I cried alot in those 5 days lol)

The line "all of my life, in every season, You are still God , and I have a reason to sing, I have a reason to worship", I thought about myself, my family, and my church. I wish we could grasp that concept. With, without, a pastor, staff, junk- no matter what is going on we still have a reason to Worship. There is still a reason to get up each morning and "Bring Praise" this is something I struggle with. Then last night I really listed to the verses. "This is my prayer in the battle", thats how I felt last night, like we were fighting in a battle, and most of the time thats how I feel in my personal (non work) life too. Then my friendly 2x4 reminded that no "weapon used against me shall remain" and that in this moment I have every reason in the world to sing praise.

I guess it just did a mental dump so if you are reading this sorry for the randomness. I encourage you to listen to this beautiful song. Maybe I'll ask if we can sing it in church...

The Desert Song

This is my prayer in the desert
And all that's within me feels dry
This is my prayer in the hunger in me
My God is a God who provides

And this is my prayer in the fire
In weakness or trial or pain
There is a faith proved
Of more worth than gold
So refine me Lord through the flames

And I will bring praise
I will bring praise
No weapon forged against me shall remain

I will rejoice
I will declare
God is my victory and He is here

And this is my prayer in the battle
And triumph is still on it's way
I am a conqueror and co-heir with Christ
So firm on His promise I'll stand

All of my life
In every season
You are still God
I have a reason to sing
I have a reason to worship

This is my prayer in the harvest
When favor and providence flow
I know I'm filled to be empited again
The seed I've recieved I will sow

Sunday, January 3, 2010

Healing is in Your hands

Christy Knockles sang this at the opening of Passion
Listen there!

Our Present,
our Past,
our Future is in your hands,
We are covered by your blood
we are covered by your blood.

How high
how Wide
No matter where I am
healing is in your hands

how deep
How strong
Now by your Grace I stand
healing is in your hands

Gods kinda funny like that!

I love hillsong. Anyone who knows me should know that.

I'm standing in the line for Tomlin, Reman, and Houston Worship+Justice Work shop. lucky for me I'm 3rd in line due to me being alone and having the ability to Hulk out and eat fast.. anywho

This tall Australian man came up and started talking to us in line. He ask what I did and where I'm from and junk like that then he ask us what are dreams were. I said to lead worship someday. he asked if I did it any and I said yes my buddy jordan and a friend of ours does at church and I'm on praise team but nothing huge..... he listened to the other guys then told me sometimes it takes a while for things to "click" and that I should follow my dreams and God would allow me to lead if it was his will. Then he had to go. so back to boring standing in the line.... I was so oooooo excited to listen to Joel and chris speak. I was texting jordan rubbing it in haha

Finally we rush in and I chose a side seat so I can stretch out and not have jerks elbowing me in the back... 30 mins of anticipation pass and then they walk out...

I almost started crying. The tall austrailian man was JOEL HOUSTON of HILLSONG
I then realized that God used the situation in line. I never would have spoken to the man if I had known who he is.

This morning we talked about some self confidence things in community group and I know that God is working on me in that department!

This conference isn't about the worhsip leaders names or the speakers. Its about Jesus.
I should be this excited to walk in to my work and church everyday because I get to meet Jesus.
they are just people doing Gods will.

beth moore gave a whole sermon on the word "equipping" more on that later...