Flight #1 Abilene- DFW 9:30

I've never really been scared to fly before. Even now with all the high risk security posters and warnings everywhere. I know that our country and airports are trying the best they can to keep us safe in the air and so there is no reason to be an annoying panic y person. the lady sitting next to me is terrified and looking over her shoulder and looking people up and down. I was questioning my bobbi pins in my carry on thinking that they wouldn't let me so i ask the check in lady she joked with me and said that I didn't seem like the type to stab someone in the eye! I laughed and she said i should be good to go.

The only thing that aggrivates me so far on the trip is that the lady before me in security line got chose to be randomly searched, she was late for her flight that was calling final boarding and had a 3 year old with her. I calmly talked to the little girl and told her mom I would watch her while they did the search!

My reading material for this flight is " Gifted to Lead - the art of leading as a Woman in the Church" I felt like I should read it. I'm going to try not to question God or any hunches or anything on this trip. I'm trying to have a completely obeidant heart and mind to what God has for me this trip.

Passion 2010

so in the days leading up to Passion 2010 on the Blog they have posted key verses and things to pray for. If you feel lead please Join in and Pray. I'm so exctied to be able to Worhsip our Lord with 20,000 + College age students.

For those of you who don't know where I'm going or what Passion is I copied some things from the website!

Passion exists to glorify God-uniting students in worship and prayer for spiritual awakening in this generation.

From the beginning Passion has been rooted in the confession of Isaiah 26:8: “Yes Lord, walking in the way of Your truth we wait eagerly for You, for Your name and renown are the desire of our souls.”*

As a result, Passion seeks to gather college and university students across the nation and around the world to seek the face of God, asking Him to ignite in our souls a passionate pursuit of Jesus Christ and a desire to spread His fame to everyone on earth.

We believe God is calling out a generation of college students committed to the glory of His name in all things. God longs to bring awakening to every campus, mobilizing the students of today to finish the task of global evangelization in this generation. God is calling us out for this purpose, in this moment, for His renown.


I will try to blog about my trip and whats going on in Atlanta!

Samanthas Wedding

I caught the bouquet and then it was taken from me... see the skinny girl lunging for me... sad day
The Going away dress

Waiting to get the wedding started!

Rehersal dinner

Bachlorette Party

Sams wedding was amazing it was truly beautiful!

here are some highlights

180 party!

Courtney and I have had the best group of 8th grades every wednesday night. Its been such a joy to watch them grow in the Lord! Courtney blogged about them first but I figured there was no harm in me doing the same!

Nope Just Friends

Ever notice that when you are a single girl in a married/coupled world they always try to set you up?

I sang a a neighboring church yesterday and had a few people (blue haired lady's) ask if I had met Mr New Youth Minister...... I understand that I need a wonderful Godly Man, but one who works at another church and has a Girlfriend just seem to throw up some Flags for me.... Don't get me wrong, he's tall( my number 2 criteria) and probably a wonderful guy but he's taken.
END OF STORY

My next point being that just because you sing, play, lead Worship with, go eat with or go to Wally world with a guy doesn't mean you are Dating. everyone knows what happens when you ASSUME

It is outrageous to have 40+ people ask a guy I sing with if we are dating. Same goes for the Guy who played Piano with me yesterday, I told about 8 people................. Nope just friends
END OF STORY

Who knows maybe one day ( soon please Lord) one of the Blue Haired Lady's will actually introduce me to mr. right... but until that day comes I will keep saying "Nope Just Friends"



Blue Haired Ladys = the Senior Adults at church who just want you to be as happy as they are!

St. johns wort

Dear St Johns Wort,
I should have taken your name as a warning, no one should take a medicine that has the word "wort" in it. Yet I'm stupid and I did. I appreciate you not having accruate warning lables on the kind of damage you can do to ones body, thus allowing me to spend a week in bed hardly being able to move. My hair really needed mass amounts of thinning also so once again thank you for helping with that. I'm sure that my neurologist would extend his gratitude to you as well...
Thanks for giving me an interesting week...

Exciting things in my life lately!

skye and I went to DFW to the Lady Antebellum Concert! It was amazing!This is our chi-wienie Bella. She's awesome and provides for hours of entertainment!

The voice within that I didn't know I had.....

When I was younger I couldn't wait to be in youth. I wanted to sing on praise team in the FLC, but when that time came I was told I wasn't good enough. The end. I never ask to sing in church again.

about a year ago God started some major work on me. One of the things he worked on was me using my gift that He gave me to Glorify him. so I slowly started singing again...

well yesterday I faced one of my greatest fears...



THE FLC
dun
duh
duuuuuh


It seems petty to some poeple that I would be nervous to sing across the street for the youth but not for big church, or even across the street at the methodest church with a bunch of people I don't know.

That bulding was assosaited with some of my deepest scars so for me to sing over there was terrifying.

Sat night while waiting to practice I got down on my knees and just let go of all of my fears, I didn't feel anything really so I was like oh well, im hungry. We left to go eat then got back and set up ect... all the while me feeling uneasy and on the verge of running from the building, i knew I had given it to God but thats not an instant easy button.

We sang a few songs, then we got to one of my new favorites. I shut my eyes and let go . I realize then that I had just reached deep down past all of the crud and pulled out that little girl who wanted to sing oever there...... after doing so jordan and ben were just like " welp I think you should do that alone" it jus tfelt so good.
Ben later told me if I sang like a pansy him and courtney would come after me... granted I kinda sang like a pansy on sunday morning but it didn't matter anymore.

My joy carried over to big church were I kept wanting to dance... Its so hard to keep it inside once you when through the trouble of letting it out!

with all that rambling being said, I don't know if I will do it again.

With Gods help I reached into my heart and let out the voice that I never believed I had...

blog challenge

So last Monday I was having lunch with Courtney and we were discussing our blogs. I was telling her how much i liked just getting everything out in the open even if no one reads it. So I'm going to try really hard to blog a few times a week!

Busy Busy Busy

Lately i've found myself being extremly busy! So busy ihave had to schedule phone calls with my mom and friends. Its sad to watch your phone ring and not be able to answer it because you know you will only have 30 secs to talk which isn't even long enough to say "im sorry im working, I know its 6:00 but yes I'm still working can I call you later? oh well later meaning tonight. oh 10:00 is to late? well thats what time I get home.. no no tomorrow is worse.. how about we talk from 7:30- 8:05 in the morning.. thanks love you bye...

Mirror, mirror on the wall

So Mardel was having a sale on books... a $1.00 book sale...

I picked one up as a joke then read the back!

Mirror, Mirror, on the wall...

for most of us, it's impossible to look in the mirrow and feel as if we can ever measure up to th images of perfection surronding us. But we try anyway, don't we?

............. yada..................yada.................... boring..................

In Journey to Healthy Living: Freesom from body image and food issues, we'll explore what it means to discover that your body is not something to be loathed, but that it is a wonderful gift from God. A Masterpeice. We'll help you identify your eating and excersise habits and patterns and challenge you to uncover the root of your struggles with food and your body so that you can learn to live a life of freedom.



so I will read the book and let you know if it worked.... those of you who know me real well, are thinking im crazy with my posts about running 5k's (btw my mother issued a challenge) and reading God health books...

5K

This weekend I went out to watch Jim ( Worship Leader) and Savahna ( Best Friend) run in the 5K! I then realized that half of my sunday school class was running, then I saw that my two "bosses" at the church were running. I felt like a lazy giant. I was the one taking pictures on the street corner sweating from watching them run.

I decided enough was enough. Next year I will run the 5k... some of you are thinking thats a whole year away.... its going to take me a whole year to be able to run that! but I'm going to do it.

so... If you see me walking to jogging around town, wave or honk or something because I'm going to need all the encouragement I can get!

Can anybody find me somebody to love?

Glee is my new favorite show.... I think its because I know exactly how it feels to be those kids.

lately I've been struggling with using the talent God gave me. Music is my passion, because it is im affected in many different ways, like sometime bursting into tears while watching a stupid TV show because the musical number is so powerful!




and i want somebody to love haha

takhamasak, and just not that into you!

Not much going on besides me running around with like a chicken with my head cut off lately! I'm so glad God has me where I am but boy am I busy!

in 180 groups we started a series called "Just not that into you" I'm enjoying it... It talks about how we all sometimes just don't feel like being "christian" or just arnt into God at the moment... more to come on that as the series progresses!

TAKHAMASAK started last night... I'm anxious to see how God moves out there at WTC! someone ask me why I decided to add something else to my plate... simple answer...

It is where I choose to serve!

I'm not paid to be out there , set up, tear down, fellowship and lead worship. I'm there because I want to be! I have a passion for the Youth and College Crowd so why not be there....

let me worry about how busy I am!

I have a new favorite song... I would really love to sing it one day ( if someone I know would learn the guitar chords and be the super worship leader I know he can be)

The Power of Your Name by Lincoln BrewsterI will live

To carry your compassion
to love a world thats broken
to be your hands and feet
I will give
With the life that I've been given
to go beyond religion
to see the world be changed
by the power of YOUR name

Stuff Christians Like--- Giving the Gift of going Second

I read this blog everyday! It's my daily source of Laughter and thought all at the same time! so I decided to share this with you! After reading this I tried hard to go first at most things and it sometimes worked... I just like the point he made!
www.stuffchristianslike.net


#502. Confessing "Safe Sins"
Have you ever been in a small group with people that confess safe sins? Someone will say, “I need to be honest with everyone tonight. I need to have full disclosure and submit myself in honesty. Like ODB from the Wu-Tang Clan, I need to give it to you raw!”
So you brace yourself for this crazy moment of authenticity and the person takes a deep breath and says … “I haven’t been reading my Bible enough.”Ugh, you, dirty, dirty sinner. I’m not even sure I can be in a small group with you any more. Not reading your Bible enough, that is disgusting.
And then once he’s gone someone else will catch the safe sin bug too and will say, “I need to be real too. I haven’t been praying enough.”Two of you in the same room? Wow, freak shows! I can barely stand it.
But what happens when people start confessing safe sins is that everyone else in the room starts concealing their real junk. I mean if I was surrounded by confessions like that in the eighth grade I would have instantly known I couldn’t follow the “not reading my Bible enough” guy with my own story:“Soooo, this weekend when it was snowing I told my parents I was going to the dump to sled but instead I was really just digging through a 200 foot mountain of warm trash looking for pornography.” And the same principle would have applied to me in my late 20s. I wouldn’t have been honest sharing my struggles with Internet porn if everyone else confessed their “safe enough for small group” sins.And that sucks.
It sucks that as broken as we all are, as desperate as we all are for a Savior, we feel compelled to clean ourselves up when we get around each other.But this blog has taught me something unbelievable. If I stop writing tomorrow, this will be the lesson I cling to the most.

When you go first, you give everyone in your church or your community or your small group or your blog, the gift of going second.It’s so much harder to be first. No one knows what’s off limits yet and you’re setting the boundaries with your words. You’re throwing yourself on the honesty grenade and taking whatever fall out that comes with it. Going second is so much easier. And the ease only grows exponentially as people continue to share. But it has to be started somewhere. Someone has to go first and I think it has to be us.We’re called to give the gift of second to the people in our lives. To live the truth, to share the truth, to be the truth.Let’s give the gift of going second.

Getting lost in a book!

so call me a nerd but sometimes I just like to et lost in a book. Curl up on the couch and read. I feel like the characters and I know how they are feeling and what they are going through. Maybe its because my mom was a librarian I just enjoy reading! Call me belle, a nerd geek, whatever you want! so I've been reading some Christian Romance novels lately and usually they are just feel good books. So the latest one I read was about this girl who didn't think she was good enough and a guy who didn't think he ws good enough... yada yada yada

then I read this

"so where does God come into play in this business? it seems to me He took a woman drawing water and gave her to Issac. He took the mother of our Savior and placed her safely in the arms of a lowly carpenter. Seems to me your limiting God on what he might have for you."

Woah I never looked at it that way before. I sat there defending Joesph he wasn't JUST a lowly Carpenter... but thats how other people saw him. it made me think of people saying oh shes just a teacher or hes just a rancher... GOD knows what he's doing. I love that I'm reminded of that in simple little ways like from a book I got from the half price bin at mardel because I'm cheap......

Changing Spiritual Gifts?

So I took a spiritual gift test in high school, The results
Mercy and Music..

It was brought up today and I got distracted at my desk and decided to do one. I was curious to see if they had changed. I'm also pretty sure its the same book I used oh so long ago.

boy was I surprised. They changed! Maybe not changed but more developed and shifted.

so once second in line is now first
Music- The gift of music is the unique capacity to use the vehicle of music to share one's relationship with God and to lead others to worship God. Essentially it is the ability to communicate God's love through music.

Next up and making its first appearance
Exhortation- the ability to bring out the best in others by means of encouraging, challenging, comforting, and guiding. Essentially it is the gift of counseling others to become all that God wants them to be.

also in close behind those are
Leadership and Mercy

Funny how things change as you grow up and find out who you are in Christ!

Jumble of thoughts

My mind is full of thoughts today.. so im just going to blog about them and see if my head clears

so....

I need to learn to play the Guitar....... and write music. Being around people who just pick up guitars and bust out songs makes my brain go. man why can't I learn to do that.
While im on the subject of music. I for some reason have been reserved about it lately... maybe the feeling of inadequacy? I don't know but I want it to go away

things at work are changing and different but Im happy and I know that God has placed me there for a reason!

I would really like some new shoes. if you know me its a shocker that I think I need to invest in some cute heals to go with my dressier clothes. which makes me think... I need dressier clothes

I miss these girls (+ devin)

I don't like being a grown up sometimes. Maybe its not the being a grown up, its not having a heart like a child and being oblivious to the heartbreak in life.

so I'm sitting here and my pandora is going... pandora is my friend... I even think God speaks to me through Pandora sometimes... what I need to hear the moment I'm down, just comes on and i feel better! YAY
Pandora just played a wonderful song!

If you took time out of your day to read this im sorry! Just my way of clearing my head!

Not me Monday/ I love sundays.

Yesterday was great! I love Sundays. I was sorta afraid I would want to come to church since I spend every day here but despite a horrible fever and sore throat sat night I bounced out of bed ready as ever. Granted I felt horrible but I was excited!
It's been my dream since I was younger to sing on praise team. I get to now:) ...me excited.....no not me.....Its hard for me to figure the harmonies so wuickly but I'm learning slowly! I love my sunday school class. They just make me laugh and smile and remember why I make some choices I do. They are such caring people and someone I fit in with all the married older folks. It shouldn't matter about fitting in at church, but I've learned that there is still a problem with acceptance somewhere where it should be key!

Lots of things are changing! Bunches of people moving. Its going to be weird, You get used to seeing people almost everyday and then by the end of the month most of them will be gone! God has brought these people into my life and I'm extremly sad to see them go :( Oh well Abilene is that far away I guess.

Have you ever met someone and felt like you have known them your whole life? This happend to me recently... more to come on that later!

This made my day- No pets

I saw this this morning and it just brightened my day!
Go look if you need a laugh!

Psalms 37 :3-9

Trust in the LORD and do good;
dwell in the land and enjoy safe pasture.
⁴ Delight yourself in the LORD

and he will give you the desires of your heart.

⁵ Commit your way to the LORD;
trust in him and he will do this:

⁶ He will make your righteousness shine like the dawn,
the justice of your cause like the noonday sun.

⁷ Be still before the LORD and wait patiently for him;
do not fret when men succeed in their ways,
when they carry out their wicked schemes.

⁸ Refrain from anger and turn from wrath;
do not fret—it leads only to evil.

⁹ For evil men will be cut off,
but those who hope in the LORD will inherit the land

I've thought about this verse alot lately! I've grown up hearing, "God will give you the desires of your heart" but lately I've came to realize that my hearts desires and God desires for my heart were not exactly matching up. I want more than anything for my hearts desires and Gods to be the same! I've been spending more and more time in Worship and Prayer lately, God is working in my life and its so confusing so who better to talk to than the Lord.

God is slowing changing my heart and I'm starting to see new and different characteristics. I think its wonderful, unfortunately some people don't but thats okay because I "will delight myself in the Lord"

Its written in Alyssa's (soon to be mine) office

When we allow Gods power to invade out lives,
we can do things we never thought possible!
- Neil Clark Warren

Just something to think about..........
Are you brave enough to pray that God will "ruin" your life?
Do you want to know the Possibilities that God has to offer?

Revelation song, Jordan and Sarah style!

ok so there is this song that Phillips Craig, and Dean just re released call the "revelation song" It was previously made popular by Gateway Worship, both of which are amazing versions! So I heard it one day on the way to a Neurology Apt in Lubbock and became over whelmed with emotion and just thought. Wow if I could sing that song. I told Jordan about the song and proceeded on my merry way...
so one day sitting in his office we decided to learn it, much to our suprise we didn't sound half bad. We are no gateway worship but when you are truly Worshiping God something different comes out!
I've now sang it Twice at FUMC and would like to sing it at my church sometime too!

So now for the funny part! Its about 11:00 sat night! I had made dinner for some of my high school girls and then we decided we needed to practice. I'm in sweats and comfy on the couch, and jordan is just chillin with the guitar. The gals decided that they needed to record it. I wasn't actually thinking that it would end up on youtube or sound remotely decent!

SO

Doubt and joy!

So I'm still struggling with knowing for sure that I'm doing the right thing! So yesterday I expressed that concern to my wonderful sunday school class and of course they told me exactly what God needed me to hear!

Matthew 25-34-36

³⁴"Then the King will say to those on his right, 'Come, you who are blessed by my Father; take your inheritance, the kingdom prepared for you since the creation of the world. ³⁵For I was hungry and you gave me something to eat, I was thirsty and you gave me something to drink, I was a stranger and you invited me in, ³⁶I needed clothes and you clothed me, I was sick and you looked after me, I was in prison and you came to visit me.'

My fears and doubts were washed away at the moment!


next subject.. weddings... yay

My great friend Sam is engaged to the person that GOD has picked out for her. I know mine is out there but man I want to find him haha! all the wedding talk and the joys of starting their new life is so exciting! She is so incredibly happy and that my friends give me great joy!

I wonder what God was thinking
When He created you
I wonder if He knew everything I would need
Because He made all my dreams come true
He must have heard every prayer I've been praying
Yes, He knew everything I would need
When God made you
When dreams come true
When God made you
He must have been thinking about me

lives can changes in the matter of mins...

Our vertical expression must have a horizontal effect. So, we’ll continue to worship, praise and honor God with heart, soul, mind and strength the best we know how, but the fruit of that must be a generation who are totally committed to reaching the lost and helping those who need help, locally and globally.”- Joel Houston

I thought about this yesterday, with the death of a friend, husband, and father. Peoples lives can change in a matter of mins. My friend Samantha got engaged yesterday her life will never be the same. A day full of joy and sadness!

Two ladys from my church came by the house yesterday to talk to me about something God placed on their heart, and by the end of the conversation I opened up my home, without my mothers permission, so a lady is now staying in the wizard of oz room.
I hope that I can be a witness to her and help her in her journey to find Gods path. Pray that God will show us why he chose to place her with me! Pray that my mom has a welcome heart! and that we will be a witness!

Hillsong

Ive said recently if I could have any job in the world I would want to sing with Hillsong United! I'm watching them on Tv right now and can't imagine what it would be like to lead that many people in Worship! While at camp out worship was off of Hillsong for kids, and I had the pleasure of leading them with that! I want to be in a band and dance around and just JAM for God... and teach little kids ridiculous boy band dance moves.....

I know that God has laid Worship on my heart for a reason, not completely sure what the reason is at the moment, but I do know i look forward more and more to when I get to lead people in Worshiping God and drawing them closer to the Lord with music.

so
I'll stand with arms high and heart abandoned.......... all I have is YOURS!

randomness

I love the Fourth of July in Snyder!
I always said no matter where I'm at in life I will spend the fourth in Snyder! Same usually went for my family, I usually have people here. Last year it broke my heart that my mom wasn't here but my g-ma was!

This year no family! Sad day... oh well! I know that its going to be a wonderful holiday! My friends are going to be my family this year and I know that I'll be okay!



The Bachlorette is starting to aggravate me. Wes is a sleaze ball, but I'm a big fan of Ed and glad he's back!


God is still doing work in my life, I am learning how to completely Trust him and its great!

Trust

Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding (NIV)
Proverbs 3:5

God got me through the day......

Ever have those days when you feel like everything is directed at you?
Sunday was like that!
Sunday school the sermon was about Taking joy in out persecution, and those of you that know me know how much of a struggle that is for me...

James 1 2-5

2Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, 3because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. 4Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. 5If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him.

then we got to big church and I sang my heart out...I LOVE IT WHEN GOD JUST TAKES OVER!!!!

The pain went completely away while singing in Early church and stayed gone until the end of big church... the min I walked outside at 12:20 it all came back but I'm happy with Gods reward of relief when I sing.

On Monday I had a bad bad day with my headache and was really dreading being at work on Tuesday with people, noise and light! So we prayed, that I would have the strength to get out of bed.......
God pulled through big time! I know to some of you this is stupid but It helped me sooooo much!

Around 9 one of the women in my Sunday school class that hadn't been there on Sunday came in the store.. she said she needed Gorilla Glue but I know that God sent her to remind me that I'm loved...Around 10 Jim came in the store and was just the friendly face I needed by lunch time 3 more people had come in and just encouraged and love on me
right before I was going to leave an elderly lady from FUMC came and said how much she missed me singing with Jordan on sunday but she had heard that I did a "mighty fine" job at my own church...

God showed me that He is amazing and will always give me the boost when I really need it..

Running from God and Ninivah

Do you ever run away from God?
I do..

We started talking about jonah two weeks ago in church and to be honest I was not thrilled... I just knew God got mad and the whale ate him! Half way the sermon I got cocky and was like "what an idoit" Why would you blatenly disobey God? Then I felt God laughing at me. I don't know your oponion of God but my God laughs and jokes with me, he's funny! He was there whispering in a mocking tone in my ear "yeah Sarah who would not listen to me they have got to be crazy" "he said Just listen to the sermon Sarah

I did

Russell ask the Question

??WHAT IS YOUR NINIVAH??
(God told jonah to go and he said no and went the complete oppisite direction)

What does God tell you to do that you say........

its to hard
I'm scared
You really think I should be there God
Its newIts out of my comfort zone
You get the point

This really hit home for me.. I had a few ninivahs but my main one was music. God has been saying sing for years not and I just don't listen.. I dont think that I'm good enough and lately when I do sing it helps to have jordan with me but God has said Sarah you gotta sing without him and I usually say no...
By the end of the sermon last sunday I was in total AWE of GOD he had taught me so much in that hour... then he put me to the test. Jim came and ask me to be on Praise Team for the next week.... I almost said no, satan was right there whispering your not good enough.. but with a push from my good pal Sam I went for it and I'm so glad I did!God taught me that

HE EQUIPTS THE CALLED NOT CALLS THE EQUIPT

I realized that I don't have to have Jordan with me, its nice to sing with him but I'll be okay without, That just because my church is used to great music doesn't mean they are Numb, and that sometimes God uses people to touch lives without you having a clue!

so what is your Ninivah?

What is God telling you to do that you are scared of?

Go listen to the sermon I'm talking about here!

be careful what you pray for

Do you ever pray for something and then when God answers question it?
Its happened a lot lately!

Update on migraines! Stress. I obviously need to make some changes in my life and how I handle stress because its literally causing me physical harm. I never knew that just stress could cause so much pain!

Casey are Jordan are gone this week... I miss my friends :(


short and sweet because the computer screen hurts my head... figures.

This book will change your life?!?!?!?!

So a while back Casey told me to read this book and that it would change my life...

I liked my life at the moment and didn't read it, with that being said I read it today and it changed my life!!!

Favorite Quote
"God comforts the disturbed and disturbs the comfortable!

dear you....

I found this and had to share.... it was just what I needed to hear!


Dear You
How was your day today? Did anyone make you laugh today? I know how you love to laugh. Did anyone hurt you today? Don’t sweat them just pray for them. Though these times of economic struggle we must pray for one another more then we already do. I’m glad that you believe in God, and I’m glad that you practice your faith. I’m glad that you have knowledge and that you’re not ignorant.
I’m glad that you’re in good health and that you take care of yourself. I think people just don’t understand how important that is. What’s your favorite past time? My favorite past time is the UFC, nothing beats that well besides you and you’re not a past time. I promise to watch chic flicks with you and I won’t complain at all. As long as we’re together, I’m cool doing whatever.
I’m glad that you have one of the biggest hearts in the world. I’m happy to call you my other half, the future mother of my kids, my meant to be, the love of my life God has given me to live. You are special and you mean so much to me. When you walk in a room I always have this feeling that overcomes me and that feeling is pure joy to know that you’re the one I will be with for all times with no doubt ever. I’m happy God has given us his blessing.
You are one of those people that actually learned from your mistakes and teach others the other options they have of not making the same ones. You are the person that even if they do make the same mistake you’re there to pick them up and love them. You don’t smoke, you don’t belittle people, you have manners, and more importantly you have morals. I respect you whole heartedly.
I will always open the doors for you, and allow you to walk in first. I will pull your chair out when there is a chair to pull out. I will be romantic with you, trust me I know how to do this. You would travel the ends of the earth to be with me and I would do the same. Though there may be distance in the beginning we will find our way to one another.
I like hearing your stories, you make them worthwhile, and they’re never boring. Your past has strengthened you and you don’t live in it. You don’t see people in colors. When you use to date race wasn’t something that limited you. You like to smile. You enjoy conversation, and enjoy time to just be with each other without words. I respect that you don’t use profanity around kids and you may not even use it at all. I love how you’re so lady like.
I like that you’re honest. You are optimistic and you even give others hope. People turn to you all the time and that is what makes you a good friend as well. You’re not a Debby Downer, and with you there is never a dull moment. You like to play board games, you like to go to museums, you like to tell me interesting facts even though I may already know them I will listen to your melody any day.
I can’t wait to watch movies with you, I’m happy you don’t actually talk through movies. It’s good that you’re close to your family and I to mine, for one day we will introduce not only each other to them but them to one another. I have family everywhere so we do have pretty good vacation spots. Though I don’t know you, I trust God’s master plan that you exist. I love you my dear. Stay positive. I do exist.
Love Always
Me

Migraines suck. I'm miserable.
the end

To the ends of the Earth....

On sunday Jordan and I had the honor of singing a song at his church! I thought it would be easier singing in front of people I didn't know as opposed my church where i knew everyone... this was not the case. I was a nervous wreck, couldn't sleep the night before, & was ready to go about 3 hours early! I went to sunday school hoping that they could calm me down. I've found that I rely on people way to much. Obviously I should have just prayed about it but honestly it was the last thing I was thinking of everything else in the world was on my mind besides God. I finally got to sunday school early of corse and spend some much needed time in prayer and suddenly my mind was clear of everything going on. I find it harder to Worship God when things are on my heart and I wanted to clear them up before, someitmes you don't get what you want, but God understood and pulled through and by the time I walked over to the Methodest church My heart and mind were clear for the time being! I'm always amazed at how God works!  The song went great and the people there are amazing. so welcoming and kind and just made sure I new what a blessing it was. god is apparently using my voice lately and I'm just not used to it. Singing with jordan on occasion has been more of a blessing that i ever realized. 

The lyrics of the song are so powerful so I decided to share them.

Love unfailing
Overtaking my heart
You take me in
Finding peace again
Fear is lost in all you are

And I would give the world to tell you're story 
'Cause I know that you've called me
I know that you've called me
I've lost myself for good within your promise
And I won't hide it
I won't hide it 

Jesus, I believe in You
And I would go, to the ends of the earth
To the ends of the earth
For you alone are the son of God
And all the world will see
That You are God
You are God

just one of those days.....

It's just one of those days that a girl goes through
When I'm angry inside....... don't take it personal!

for some odd reason this song has been stuck in my head today!

Standards.....

Whenever I start second guessing myself and begin to want to settle God just puts something, someone, or everything in my path to stop me! at first i fought it but now I love it and im so thankful! We talked about marriage and good husbands and Godly wife's yesterday in church, I just got so excited because sometimes I feel like those good men arn't out there. Growing up in a broken home and raised by a bunch of single people I never really had anything to base a ideal God centered marriage off of. If you know me you know that I NEVER want to get divorce... its just not an option, I know what it does to kids and i refuse to do that.... murder maybe ;) divorce no! jk Yesterdays sermon just got me excited to find the one God has for me. God has brought me some excellent examples of those good Godly men lately and im often reminded to keep my standards and not settle...

Ephesians 5 22-25
Wives, submit to your husbands as to the Lord. ²³For the husband is the head of the wife as Christ is the head of the church, his body, of which he is the Savior. ²⁴Now as the church submits to Christ, so also wives should submit to their husbands in everything. ²⁵Husbands, love your wives, just as Christ loved the church and gave himself up for her

When do you feel close to God?

Have you ever felt God put his arm around you, or be so close you know he's right there?


Duke Underwood is speaking at a revival at First United Methodist this week and he told a story about knowing that God was right there with him. It made me remember the recent occasions that God has made himself know personally to me.

Once was this Sunday, I was singing in church and terrified and I felt God put his hand on my shoulder and it felt like he whispered " its just you and me Sarah, think about what you are singing and know that you can hide in me" I completely let go and sang.
Next was on tuesday and Casey, Jordan, and I were practicing for TAKHAMASAK and once again I felt the whisper and then had saying once again. Its just you and me and them Sarah, I gave yall this gift so use it........

this is a new thing for me... feeling God so close. I know that people have experiences like this often but not me... I'm not complaining I really enjoy them but wow, i think its because we are reading a book about knowing the character of God and its helping me to be more aware!

sooooooo
When do you feel closest to God?

Why do you wake up in the morning?

Why do you wake up in the morning? I was asked that tonight at dinner and didn't have an answer. It was very disturbing that I couldn't answer this question! I'll let you know when I find the answer but until then....................

Why do you wake up in the morning?

long gone

I learned how strong I am this week! Numerous times actually.... God has tested me but through Him ive seen how much I've grown!

Lady Antebellum - long gone


It’s so like you just to show up at my door
And act like nothin’s happened
You think I’ll sweep my heart up off the floor
And give it to you
Like so many times before
You’re talking to a stranger
I’m not that girl anymore

That girl is long gone
Boy you missed the boat it just sailed away
Long gone
She’s not drowning in her yesterdays
Betcha never thought I’d be that strong
Well this girl is long gone

Don’t waste your breath with baby baby please
Cuz I am so not listening
Don’t bother getting down upon your knees and try to beg me
I’m tired of how you twist the truth
You’re not talking to the same girl
Who used to forgive you


Gone like the wind under Superman’s cape
Like a thief in the night I made the great escape
I’m not the kind of girl that keeps making the same mistakes

I know those of you who read this are tired of lyrics but its how I feel!

God's Love Letter!

If your husband or boyfriend wrote you a love letter and handed it to you, how eager would you be to open it? How long would it take your eyes to devour every single word of it? Would it seem Urgent? Would you make it a priority?

Remember the Bible is God's love letter to you, written straight from his heart in order to touch ours..

That is in a book I read calling Completely His... I read super fast so Im in the process of re-reading some of them now that I'm at a different point in my life and this morning that hit home so much more than ever... I should devour ever word of my bible, learn it, memorize it.. ect! When it comes to Bible stuff I usually ask for help. I know what Gods word says but im not great about busting out the verse... luckly God has placed people in my life that are which is making me try harder at it!


The Lord your God is with you,
He is mighty to save
He will take great delight in you ,
He will quiet you with his love, he will rejoice over you with singing. Zephaniah 3:17

worthy walking?

Ephesians 4:1 say
"As a prisoner for the Lord, then, I urge you to live a life worthy of the calling you have received."
A few other translations have I urge you to walk in a way worthy of your calling......

What a powerful verse!!!

I sat there Pondering the question , is my walk Worthy of the calling I've received? Do i even know what my calling is?

Love Heals

So many people close to me are going through some hard stuff right now and I keep remembering a song off the end of the RENT soundtrack!! Its called Love heals. If you are a Christian then you can take it to another level with "Love" being Jesus or God... If not its still an awesome Song!
Like a breath of midnight air
Like a lighthouse, like a prayer
Like the flicker and the flare
The sky reveals

Like a walk along the shore
That you've walked a thousand times before
Like the oceans roar
Love heals

There are those who shield their hearts
Those who quit before they start
Who frozen up the part of them that feels
(Don't freeze your heart)

In the dark they've lost their sight
Like a ship without a star
In the night
But hold on tight

Love heals
(When you feel, like you can't go on)
Love heals
(Hold onto love, it'll keep you strong)
Love heals
(When you feel like, you can't go on)
Love heals
(Hold onto love and it'll bring you home)

Love heals when pain's too much to bear
When you reach out your hand
And only wind is there
When life's unfair when things like us are not to be

Love heals when you feel so small
Like a grain of sand, like nothing at all
When you look out at the sea, that's where love will be
That's where you'll find me, you'll find me

If you fear the storm ahead, as you lie awake, lie awake in bed
And there's no one, no one there to stroke your hand
And your mind, your mind reels
If your face is salty wet and you're drowning in regret, just

Don't forget, don't forget
Don't forget, don't forget
Don't forget, don't forget
Don't forget, don't forget

Love heals
(When you feel, like you can't go on)
Love heals
(Love, love is gonna carry you home)
Love heals
(When you feel like, when you feel like you can't go on)
Love heals
(Hold onto love and it will lead you home)
Love heals

Maybe you just have to hear it to get the impact!

Friends....

I'm well aware that God is Great and he will never let me down... but its so cool when he pours his blessings on me!

Friendships are hard. That is all there is to it! This weekend has been full of good friends, good and old!

Things happen, people change, miscommunication happens and people just grow out of touch... sometimes the people who have held your hand threw everything can't hold your hand anymore... luckly im okay now and she who was there threw the worst time in my life is back! I've missed her so much and to see her this weekend, just helped me out so much!

God has also brought me some new friends here in this town... Its very nice to be able to go play basketball as apposed to sit at home alone. granted I've had to learn to be a night owl but I like it!

I've felt like a new person. I've been walking almost everyday, eating healthier, not laying on the couch more, I've even worn makeup and done my hair... I know you thinking wow who is this person?

Change is good...right?

I think the word Change is so confusing.... for example "wow you've changed!" "well she's changed" change change change change change change!

Everyone always uses it in a negative way. I don't think its negative...
Personally I feel that God doesn't like comfort zones. Most of the time if you are in your comfort zone you get to comfy for God..

God has been working to get me out of my comfort zone this month... I don't know when it clicked but it did. If you know me you know I don't excersize.... well I walked... and cleaned... and was active..... I'm like who is this new person?
Sun- 3 miles
Monday- 2 miles
Tues- basketball

I know there are certain people who aren't to thrilled about my new changes... but if you care about me then you will support me!!!

Does anybody hear her?

Have you ever been driving somewhere and heard a song that just spoke to you?
I pulled over on my way to lubbock last night, it was on top of the cap rock and cried because of this song. I Pray that I will welcome people and try to hear "her"! Its so real for lots of people and we never think about it. This is exactly how I felt when I was in Austin and part of the time when I got back. Sometimes people are so used to seeing you, they expect you to be there, but they never see/or hear what you say! Luckly for me its not like that anymore but this song just put it all in to words for me!

She is running
A hundred miles an hour in the wrong direction
She is trying
But the canyon's ever widening
In the depths of her cold heart
So she sets out on another misadventure just to find
She's another two years older
And she's three more steps behind

Chorus:
Does anybody hear her?
Can anybody see?
Lord does anybody even know she's going down today?
Under the shadow of our steeple
With all the lost and lonely people
Searching for the hope that's tucked away in you and me
Does anybody hear her?
Can anybody see?

She is yearning
For shelter and affection
That she never found at home
She is searching
For a hero to ride in
To ride in and save the day
And in walks her prince charming
And he knows just what to say
Momentary lapse of reason
And she gives herself away

Chorus

If judgement looms under every steeple
If lofty glances from lofty people
Can't see past her scarlet letter
And we never even met her

If judgement looms under every steeple
If lofty glances from lofty people
Can't see past her scarlet letter
And we never even met her

He is running a hundred miles an hour in the wrong direction
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Kc4PZfyyuh4----Video

The sleep walking Dog and Dodge Ball playing Sarah

I've been having these weird dreams that a friend is throwing pool balls at me and its like a game of Dodgeball. I wake up and I'm tired and don't feel rested because I'm busy all night in my sleep! The other night they showed this video and I have a feeling this is how I am!!!

Hope you enjoy the laugh!

Jesus and Sirus!

if you know me you might know that I listen to Sirus The message in the mornings and that God somehow places the songs I need to hear!

i heard one of my favorite songs thats about God holding on to me and its asking God to take my hand and lead me... Then next song came on and it said something like Don't fight the hand that is trying to hold you! ( I wish I could find the exact lyrics)
Do you ever do that? Ask God for something and then fight it? I do and once again God used Sirus to help me realize it lol!



Not much has happened this week...
Monday- I went to Abilene, saw molly and a movie, picked up brandon, drove home in a thunderstorm!
Tues- work.... Takhamasak, which was once again great minus the electrical shock, and I'm getting better at the game "dork"
wed- work... cooked dinner with savy, watched skye eat, went to the bowling alley, watched them bowl, then got to see devin!!!

Lovesong for No One...........yet..........

I realized the other day that I was surrounded by couples... I was making the joke that I like to eat out with coupes so I can have one whole side of the booth to my self! I grew up with all single people...... everyone I knew was single.... Now God is showing me the Couple side of life......I know God will send me the right person someday but it doesn't mean I don't get lonely! I'm just having a blah day and I heard this Beautiful Song............. I was fixing my hair and heard the words and the next thing I know I'm sitting in my bathroom floor with tears because of the beauty I had just heard. It wasn't even "poor me I'm alone" tears it was a "Wow God your that Amazing" tears


It’s always been a mystery to me
How two hearts can come together
And love can last forever
But now that I have found you, I believe
That a miracle has come
When God sends the perfect one
Now gone are all my questions about why
And I’ve never been so sure of anything in my life

Chorus: I wonder what God was thinking
When He created you
I wonder if He knew everything I would need
Because He made all my dreams come true
When God made you
He must have been thinking about me

I promise that wherever you may go
Wherever life may lead you
With all my heart I’ll be there too
From this moment on I want you to know
I’ll let nothing come between us
And I will love the ones you love

Bridge: He made the sun He made the moon
To harmonize in perfect tune
One Can’t move without the other
They just have to be together
And that is why I know it’s true
You’re for me and I’m for you
‘Cause my world just Can’t be right
Without you in my life


P.S I think God speaks to me via Sirius Radio more often than I imagine.....

Molly's Bonazi Party

I must say that I'm a huge kid at heart!

Last night I went to Abilene to Celebrate Molly's birthday ( yay 23) We went to a Japanese steak house, the one where they cook right there with you! It was cold so we enjoyed the heat! Next to our table was a table with a few kids prolly under 7 and I think I made more ohhh wow woah Noises than the kids. Other people were entertained but I was like WOAH THATS AWESOME!
I then countunied to eat... alot... and then some more... It was wonderful!!!! we then went to Chilies for Desert in which there I ate more. I love Birthday Partys :) I just felt like such a kid last night, it was great!!!

Overall Molly's birfday was great!

Encouragement!

I love it when im feeling blue and then God sends me someone or people to give some encouragement! Everyone needs it right? When you are having a bad day isnt it nice when someone is extra friendly? or when your having a bad morning and your favorite worship song comes on sirus :)

This week has been long. I've had the flu and some other health problems. Being sick always causes problems at work. You miss out on times with your friends also, This week was the most stressful for my best friend and I felt bad cause I couldn't be there for her! Oh well everything worked out wonderful!

Willy Wonka- I love kids. I love musicals! I love chocolate! Willy wonka at the Jr. High was wonderful! A handful of my D-now girls were in it plus Miss Estrada ( director) is my best friend so I went thursday and friday night and it was so cute!

Its one of those times that if you read this and see me in Wal-Mart stop and say hi! I could use a friendly face !

Honk and Wave!

Have you been driving down the road and you see someone you know riding their bike, or running, or pushing their kids in a stroller?
I did this week. ALOT
I realized yesterday in Sunday School that I had honked and waved at the majority of my sunday school class! I though that it was funny and a tad be creepy of my self and then I realized that maybe God allowed me to cross path with them. Maybe I should have stopped and prayed for them or maybe they were praying for me, Maybe everyone just needed a friendly face. I've always been a crazy honk and wavier! I wave at everyone!
NOW I think I'll honk wave and then Pray!

waking up singing

This week has been werid. I will wake up 3-20 mins before my alarm and have hymns in my head.

wednesday- rise and shine and give God the glory glory... all day long..
Thursday- o victory in Jesus my savior forever
Friday- Old rugged cross

Tuesday night I went to takhamasak again. I really enjoyed it, I like what they are doing out there alot and Pray that God leads me to get more involved!

I'm fixin to finish a few books so ill post more soon!

Single awareness day and choir!

When I worship I slip into the moment. I get lost in the music. I love it. I joined the Choir this morning and at first was scared/worried. I just felt like I didn't fit in, like the lady sitting next to me was going to pop me over the head with our music for clapping. I know I shouldn't feel like that but maybe its how I grew up being afraid to move or sway to the music because no one else did.
About half way through Mighty to save I lost it.. I forgot where I was... I forgot that people were watching.... I was just worshiping My Jesus and it was great. no one hit me. no one gave me a dirtyl look no one even noticed. it was great!

with that being said i will be in odd ball in the choir loft for weeks to come :)

Valintines day! Ug!
I had a wonderful time with Corie and Michael though, it was nice to see old friends and catch up!

Funny!

My boss showed me this video that was e-mailed to her! I thought it was good!

I try to be so tough!

I had a tough night! I love it when God tests me because it makes me stronger but there is sometimes pain involved but when I woke up this morning and turned on my radio this song was on! and lifted my spirits.


Savior please- Josh Wilson

Savior, please take my hand
I work so hard, I live so fast
This life begins, and then it ends
And I do the best that I can, but I don't know how long I'll last

I try to be so tough
But I'm just not strong enough
I can't do this alone, God I need You to hold on to me
I try to be good enough
But I'm nothing without Your love
Savior, please keep saving me

Savior, please help me stand
I fall so hard, I fade so fast
Will You begin right where I end
And be the God of all I am because You're all that I have

I try to be so tough
But I'm just not strong enough
I can't do this alone, God I need You to hold on to me
I try to be good enough
But I'm nothing without Your love
Savior, please keep saving me

Hallelujah
Everything You are to me
Is everything I'll ever need
And I am learning to believe
That I don't have to prove a thing
'Cause You're the one who's saving me

I'm worth dying for? yeah right

"The Heart has tremendous capacity to love, and to ache. And this ache is universal."- Rob Bell

This is from a book I'm reading called "Sex God, exploring the endless connection between spirituality and sexuality". I know what your thinking but I suggest everyone read it. young and old.

Our tendency in the midst of suffering is to turn on God. To get angry and bitter and shake our fist at the sky and say, "God, you don't know what it's like! You don't understand! You have know idea what i'm going through. You don't have a clue how much this hurts"

The Cross is God taking on the flesh and blood and saying, "me too."

This was a huge realization for me. God does know how I' feel. I'm not doing this alone and the rest of the world prolly knows exactly how I feel to. Everyone has had their share of heart ache and.............

I've learned that you cant put a time frame on how fast or slow your heart heals and loves.
You can't say poof im over it. or poof I'm in love with him, or her.

This book also talks about "women worth dying for". Woah right? I'm sitting here going I don't want someone to throw them selves in front of a bus for me. Am I really worth that. Surly God didn't really mean that. I'm pretty sure he did, in not so many words.

so girlys
here is what the book says

You are worth dying for.

Your worth does not come from your body, your mind, your work, what you porduce, what you put out, how much money you make. Your worth does not come from wether or not you have a man. Your worth does not come from wether or not men notice you. You have inestimable worth that comes from your creator.

You will continue to be tempted in a thousand different ways not to believe this. The temption will be to go searching for your worth and validity from places other than your creator.
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You are worth dying for!

I am learning and growing so much. Doesn't mean its not hard, or free of pain. I'm slowly learning that God didn't say "follow me and it will be fun and easy and pain free" But I know that it is so worth it.
My creator loves me for me and I'm going to be a light for him.

Grammys

I love the Grammys! I loved to watch people do unexpected duets with each other so here are my opinions on a few of them.

Taylor Swift and Miley- Ok taylor you are an amazing artist and song writer couldn't you have picked someone a little more on your level than Miley?

Jay-Z, Lil Wayne, T.I., and Kanye West and M. I. A- not a fan of rap but I loved the performance.

Jonas Bro's and Stevie- I can only imagine what a thrill it was for them to be on stage with such a ledgend!

Neyo, jamie fox and the the four tops- Wow. pretty sure ne-yo was one of those people who are like wow I was born in the wrong time period... he just has class!

Adele and sugarland- brought me to tears. I love sad love songs.... espically right now.
John Mayers's voice makes my heart melt. im so excited for allison kraus and jennifer hudson. Her performance had me crying and wishing I had Soul like that!


I just love music!

Whats your idea of Him?

I'm reading two books at the moment. Both talk about your view of God and WHO HE IS!

I wanted to share a part of "Crazy Love"
" have you ever thought about how diverse and creative God is? He didn't have to make hundreds of different kinds of bananas, but He did. He didn't have to put 3000 species of trees within one squre mile in the Amazon Jungle but He did. God didn't have to creat so many kinds of laughter. Think about all the different sounds of your friends laughs- wheezes, snorts, silent, loud, obnoxious!"

I'm one of those people that when trying to tell someone God exists, I automatically start with nature... I've never really thought about laughter. I love to laugh.. personally I have about 5, all of which are annoying and loud but they are mine and my friends love them...
God always shows me little things that make him real but I wonder what he shows other people.
How does God show himself to you?

I went to a funeral yesterday. I hate funerals but I learned a few things at this one. They were married for 50+ years and he could count on one hand how many times he'd been away from his wife. I want a love like that. Being from a broken home my biggest fear is Divorce but to see love like that just gives me great hope that I will find the one God has for me, in his own time...


" The LORD is my rock, my fortress and my deliverer; my God is my rock, in whom I take refuge, my shield and the horn of my salvation"- 2 Samuel 22:2-3

I'm one of those people, God?

Here is some back ground-----
I have these 2 friends who have always seemed to have it SO together Spiritually. They make being a Christian look easy (not that its hard all the time) but they seem like "of course I read my bible 20 mins a day or more when I have time or get free time" One is just so bubbly, and the other spend her summer in the middle east sharing the Word..

I'm reading this book and doing a study in Sunday School called 'God as he longs for you to see Him" and it talks about perception of people and how sometimes your off just a tad bit.

I thought back to last week when I have having lunch with a friend and we were discussing dating and boys and I said that's like these two people dating way out of his league.I was saying how I will never be good enough to date someone like that... he goes better with one of the other 2 friends. hes just way out of my league..... Corie looked at me dumbfounded and was like " SARAH WE ARE IN THE SAME LEAGUE AS THEM WE JUST TALK ABOUT IT MORE"

woah... Corie was so right. we (mostly me) spent all of our time thinking that we didn't live up to their standards that we would never be on the same level as them....only to realize that our perception was oh so wrong....

While reading and talking last night I was like Why is my perception of ME so wrong? God thinks I'm good enough. so why can't I?

Am I really one of those people God? He answered "yes all of my children are "One of Those people" Sarah your perception is off just a tad bit"

Crazy Sat.

the store has been nuts today.. these people here are appartenly starting project after project.. we haven't had a chance to breath!

I took some medicine and I'm pretty sure it was night time instead of daytime... I need to wake up! and my head to de-clog

I've been reading.. I think I finsished ALL five of the books I was reading. time for more..

i'm in talks with the people at my church about a young adult small group. I feel like between when you graduate and when you get married you are kinda lost in the church... can't go to youth... adult stuff is at weird hours or not your cup of tea... i duno I hope something great comes of it!

hmm

When I'm having a blah day... like today.... I think about some days that have been worse... hince the picture... a turkey attacked my car, need I say more? ( if you look closely at my passenger window you can see plastic.... my car got broken into the day before)

my pastor had something on his blog about singing old hymns that I wanted to share
"Some people say we should sing the hymns the way they were written. I disagree. Our students worshiped and praised the God that hymn was written for. Funny, when we sing hymns the old way, none of the younger generation seems to be moved. If we keep the biblically sound words, does it really matter how we sing it. I hope not, but I fear we are more concerned about style than relevance and worship."

I personally like the old hymns and the mix of the new stuff. I like to hear the harp and organ and A'Capella chorus......... but....... I also love the base, loud drums and electric guitar.

Whats your opinion? do you think that its about the words or music or both when it comes to worship?

Just something to think about!

More Sparkles

I just wrote that long blog about sparkling and change and all that jazz.......
I walked by the window at work and the way the light hit the snow it looked like it was snowing Glitter. I love it when God shows me little reminders of how much he is real and loves me!

change and sparkles

so this blog may not be intelligent or insightful but its how im feeling....

Its funny how people change, sometimes its good sometimes its bad. I personally have experience both over the past year.
When I first moved back home I heard "wow you've changed" Where is your sparkle?" "why can't you act like the Sarah I knew from high school?" I simply answered " I don't know who I am, which is why I'm trying to find myself so I'll let you know when I get there" I lost myself at somepoint of my life in Austin......

This year I have tried searching in all the wrong places, Super Sparkley Sarah wasn't in austin, she wasn't at a party with her friends, and she wasn't home alone on the couch. That Sarah has been here all along I just wasn't looking in thr right places.

God is the one person who has been with me through out everything so why didn't I turn to him first? (fear of change)
When people told me I lost my sparkle I didn't unserstand. to some I said you imagined my sparkled it wasn't there i'm just a good actress, to others whom deep down I knew they saw it at one point I would say you missed your chance I lost it.

During the weekend one of my Crazier friends said "why are you doing this? God isn't going to let you be my friend anymore" I listened stunned on the phone.. is that what people think. that because I've chosen to live my life according to Gods path that I won't be allowed to be their friend? wow I have some explaining to do..... I later told him, "hey your the one who wants my sparkle back, who wants be to be like sarah in high school... high school sarah is gone! but Super Sparkley Sarah was in church, the Word, and fellowship with other believers. You can't be angry with me for getting my life back on track.

I sat there praying that he would understand that it wasn't me saying i don't want to hang out all the time or I don't want to be around people who tempt me, it was me (sparkly sarah) saying you can do better, i can do better. and he got it I almost cried.

another person in my life hasn't been so welcomeing to me (sparkly sarah) he didn't know me before so its all new and different. He also didn't grow up in a Christian home and doesn't hold the same moral values as I do. I'm slowly trying to help him understand the change but it will take time and its a huge challenge for me to share the Word with him.

God showed me something about myself yesterday. I was reading a Christian book at work and this gyu i work with walked up and said "thats a great book" I stared at him with disbelif... in my head I was thinking "you read? you read christian books?" (i know i sounded/ looked very judgemental" i just didn't say anything. He said I expect you to read books like that but you never expected me to huh?"
It made me think alot about how I view people!

I know it was long but thanks for reading!

great conversation....

Ever been to dinner or something and then after think wow... we just spent 2 hours in there?
I love eating with good friends. Corie and I went to dinner today and talked about God, life, and alot of love.. it was great.

so I'm reading a few (more like 5) books at the moment and I wanted to share a quote of one!

"if you don't love somebody, it gets annoying when they tell you what to do or what to feel. When you love them you get pleasure from their pleasure, and it makes it easy to serve. I didn't love God because I didn't know God." - Blue like Jazz - Donald Miller (thanks jesse)

I never thought of it that way. Think about wife's striving to please their husbands every wish... shouldn't we as Christians get pleasure from pleasing the Lord?
Next is just a funny quote from the book.
"The Bible is so good with chocolate. I always thought the bible was more of a salad thing, ya know, but it isn't. Its a chocolate thing."

D-now day dos....

What a Crazy day! (crazy like it was soooo much fun..)
During rec this year we had to create a product and make a commercial for it. We created a fruit buddy named DUDER.... he's a pineapple. (no he's not he's our friend)
I realllly hope we win the contest....... these girls deserve it ( thats right we are the BOMBDIGGATAY)
Worship last night was great. mostly because we all had amazing matching bandanas....(omg we are so cute) The sermon really spoke to the girls and they took a lot from it. Worship was their favorite part. They loooooooove Jeff Johnson...... so much that we begged the band to be in our video. So we are standing there shooting the last scene and suddly I hear car doors shut. the girls freaked out cause low and behold there was the BAND and LAYNE (omg drool omg omg giggle giggle giggle laugh freakout drool) so they film their scene with us then get on the road to C-city to go antiquing (like we are so much better than old furniture)
After worship last night I broke the rules (like i wanna see your phone) and check my cell phone and I had a facebook e-mail from a friend in oklahoma. it was in refrence to my status being about worshiping with jeff. After some research I find that my long lost buddy Jesse is one of Jeff's really good friends (omg look sarah is over there.. go go, no leave her alone.... omg you just talked to him!!!!!) its amazing how small this world is. I also found out that a few people's friends were at falls creek when Jesse's band The Doug Matlock Band ( like they are cute to what is it with hot worship leaders) were leading worship there.

CRAZY

*****bold and italic is from the girls point of view*****

D-now....

So D-now started last night. For those of you who don't know what that is its a Discipleship Now program that puts youth in homes with college age leaders for a week. (like OMG IM SO EXCITED... LOOK AT ALL THE FOOD... !)

I got the bright idea to host this year. Why not? I have a decent sized house ( like OMG your house is so neat) with the time to do it so I volunteered. Molly Haire ( my bestie) also joined in as my spouse/helper since most hosts are A) married and B) not 22.
Needless to say here I am. 8:00 in the morning blogging while molly's drying her hair ( like wow its so blonde) The girls passed out somewhere between 3:30 or 4:00 AM. My house is now taken over by 11 of the funniest, sweetest 8th grade girls I've ever met. They are truly happy and excited to learn with each other this weekend (learn? like we came for the band K?)

I went to the Adult Worship service with Jeff Johnson and his piano last night. It was wonderful. I love worship. Ky Martin ( what a fun preacher) spoke about being a Christian and the Cost.

Is GOD a part of your plan or are YOU a part of his? (plans? like im only 13 you guys)
Is it a Job or a Joy?

I realized last night while he was talking that this weekend is a JOY for me. That I am delighting in the Lord using me even though its something as small as hosting..

Then we went to the Jam session with the kiddos. There is nothing I like more than to sing at the top of my lungs and not be able to hear my self........ I love loud music. I like to hear my heart beat with the base ( like omg they are so cute.... ohhh married too) I love watching the Kids worship to. I should take a lesson from them and Worship as if I don't have a care in the world.

Im going to learn how be be JOYOUS this weekend from my girlys ( aww your like sweet)



More to come from this crazy weekend!

*****The italize text is what our girls are thinking********

P.S Jeff Johnson's song ruin me is amazing go find it and buy it and learn it and listen to the words and (like omg its so good its my favorite and like wow i wanna hear it again and again)