Sunday, August 29, 2010

What is written on your forehead?

Do you ever feel like something 
is written on your forehead? 
Like everyone in the world can see something about you but you can't?
That one thing that makes you go home and say they must be crazy for thinking that I could be that, or do that...........

Everyone must feel this way at some point in time.

I have a friend who is BEAUTIFUL! She is probably the most beautiful woman I have ever met. She can take control of a room with her beauty in a heart beat, I've seen it happen many times. But as most woman are, shes not confident in her beauty.
Beauty is written on her forehead, everyone else can see it but he can't!

I have another friend who screams LEADER. Everyone loves him, and respects him. I mean BAM respect. God has given him authority but does he think he could be a leader? nooooo 
Its like Leader is written on his forehead, everyone else can see it but he can't!

Another Friend is an amazing worship leader, talk about anointed to bring people closer to God through worship, its this guy. He doesn't know but some of the times I've felt closest to the Lord have been following him. Gods has blessed him in so many ways but does he see it? most of the time No, Satan attacks him constantly and its annoying!

I have another friend who is STRONG. She is facing some hard things right now and just keeps going. I mean everyone breaks but ... man talk about putting on the Full  Armor of God this girl is marching into battle head on. The problem is that she can't see how strong she is. Her friends, family, and even strangers tell her how inspiring she is, and how they can see Gods strength shine through her.
 All she can see is fear, brokenness, worry, uglyness, and loneliness!
 Then she remembers that Strength IS written on her forehead. Actually its TATTOOED on there because Gods strength will never leave me.

Lately I feel as if God had to bring me to the "Ends of the Earth" to show me how much strength I really have in HIM!

Strength has been a word that hasn't really been in my vocabulary up until recently but boy has it made a grand entrance. According to bible gateway Strength is in the Bible 237 times.
Here are a few  of my favs so far......

2 Thessalonians 3:3
But the Lord is faithful, and he will strengthen and protect you from the evil one.
Isaiah 40:29
He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak
Isaiah 41:10
So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.
Isaiah 12:2
Surely God is my salvation; I will trust and not be afraid. The LORD, the LORD, is my strength and my song; he has become my salvation."
Psalm 81:1
  Sing for joy to God our strength; shout aloud to the God of Jacob!

Should I keep going?
Okay last but not least in my book.....

 Proverbs 31:25
She is clothed with strength and dignity; she can laugh at the days to come.<<<<<< FAVORITE

Anyways God has really opened my eyes to some qualities of Him that reside in all of us.  His gifts are endless, sometimes we just don't get it. Our poor human minds are so full of other junk, we just don't see how Gods Glory can shine through us or we believe one of Satan lies.

I guess what I'm trying to say is look in the mirror and try to see yourself through Gods eyes. Most likely thats how people are seeing you!

In the same way, let your light shine before others, so that they may see your good works and give glory to your Father who is in heaven- Matthew 5:16


***** DISCLAIMER*****
If you feel I called you out above, or think wow sarahs talking about me, its because i probably am, or I could have been talking about normal qualities in all of us and you got convicted, or I could just be talking about myself. Figure it out, or take it for what it is. 
Me- Your friend sarah just trying to process whats going on in her life :)

Sunday, August 22, 2010

Mental Dump

My brain is on overload.
 I just finished a Christian Doctorine paper and can't turn the thinker off so I figured I'd blog so bare with me because its going to be jumbled
I know I haven't  updated in a while, thats because there is so much going on, or I just don't feel like it.
Why dont I feel good? because my body decided to hate me,actually not my whole body just my "lady parts" as someone here called it. I'm having Surgery on September 2nd to hopefully find out what is wrong with some of it and fix the rest. The dr made it sound like a video game mission.... I think not.
If you want more info read HERE
Also the C word is a B word and its annoying to think about. so I'm not :)
"In Jesus Name Be Healed" - I was complaining about everyone who says that and hits my arm  ( its sore) then some reminded me about the girl who tried to lay hands on my female parts... I'll take the arm hits :)

God has brought me some amazing friends. I mean I know they arn't all here for me but smetimes it seems that way. Words can't express how Uber ( German for SUPER SUPER SUPER) blessed I am. God seems t just be throwing people out of the woodworks who are just inspiring. The crazy thang is some of them see me as the inspiration.... weird........... actually not so weird when I really think about it. Sometimes I think Gods strength is written on my forehead, everyone else can see it but I can't quite get it :)

There are rumors going around school about me......... I apparently make amazing Guacamole :)
I need to learn to make homemade Biscuits.... NOT COOKIES OR SCONES OR WHATEVER YOU CALL THEM... good ole southern breakfast!  Oh I made Nutmeat tacos for my vegetarian friends, it wasn't to bad...but I prefer beef!

Weight Loss- I'm dropping weight like no bodys business... but I'm sick it doesn't count... I actually cried to my momma about that today. funny huh! At least I can achieve Courtney and Tara Trevy worthy big hair here!

Thats all for now I guess... MACHO LOVE:)

Surgery Message

On September 2nd they will go in and check me out. My uterus is full of abnormal junk, they will cut some off and make sure it's not the c word and then move on. Best case scenario is it's not the c word and the scrape out all the junk out and then they will check the masses (tumors but we don't like that word) in my ovaries and move on from there. Worst case scenario is that it is the C wors and then they do a total hysterectomy.

Sorry for being so blunt I know that's alot to read and even crappies via facebook but I'm okay...... I hurt most of the time and the bleeding hasn't stopped yet. But I'm handling everything okay.

God is an amazing healer but no matter what I still have to have surgery. I'm at peace with everything at the moment so remaining calm. Which as most of you know me I'm an emotional wreck but not in this case. I feel gods arms totally around me right now and I know he's got me!

The people here are totally supportive and they arnt worried about classes and such, I've only missed one class so far so that's good! We are taking it a it comes.

Contrary to my roommates wishes i don't feel like I should hop on a plane and come home, old Sarah would have about 2 weeks ago I think. I've learned so much and grown in the past month here and feel that God has me right where I'm supposed to be. Honestly I feel so at home here. God is using this to grow me so much so let's just pray for best case scenario, calm neves, and easy recovery. Feel free to tell anyone who needs to know or a great prayer warrior!

If you have any questions ask me or mom.

I love and miss each of you so much!



Saturday, August 14, 2010

Whats goin on? ( whats goin on)

Did you get the title? Whats goin on? Marvin Gaye song...... haha

Its no suprise to many of you that are my facebook friends that I'm having some health issues so I figured I'd update again. I had to go have an untrasound done the other day and they found a few abnormalities and masses that need to be checked out. They diagnosed me with poly cystic ovarian syndrome which is where the cysts came from but that's separate from the abnormalities..... so there is some junk going on. The Dr here referred me to a specialist which I will hopefully get in to see this week.  I'm on lots of medication to try and stop the bleeding and pain. None of which are working very well at the moment so I'm not a happy camper most of the time. My Iron levels are still low but we have found a supplement ( liquid dirt) to help with that. so until then I'm supposed to" rest and take it easy" I laughed at the Dr and said uhhh you know I'm a college student" ( an elder of Hillsong owns the Clinic so they get bunches of us sick babys away from home) Luckly I've only missed one day of class so far and that was to have the tests run. I'm learning how to say peace out guys i need to rest.

Please pray for healing and that God would provide the money to cover the specialist. We all have over seas health insurance which allows us to go to the dr for free but any test or medicines or seeing a specialist stops there.
I'm staying strong at the moment besides a slight freak out the other day in which I called my mommy. Then God swooped in with the offer of mexican food. So big thanks to Tory, Sarah, Hannah, Jess and Jared for letting me come with y'all and Jared for the Dr. Pepper.  Also big thanks to Liz who hasn't missed an appointment yet... I've know forgotten a few names but its because I have lots of support here. I feel like God has me here going through this for a reason so im not that discouraged yet. I'm just sick and tired of being sick and tired...( insert cross canadian rag weed song here)
School is great. I'm first up performing for our band. I will be doing an interesting rendition of the 80s ballad 'I wanna know what love is" the Tina Arena version... Google it I dare you!

So I'll leave you with some pictures of my buddies here...

Jess, Me, Jared

Liz and Josh

Tory, Charlie, Me, Lex, Sarah, Jared