Monday, November 22, 2010

Thanksgivin in Oz

Yesterday could not have gone better if I had planned it.
It was great!

Words can't really express the love and joy I feel for the people that I do life with here at HILC. God has truly blessed us with each other.
Proverbs 17:17

I was so worried about Thanksgiving. I was excited when the idea came up but I also had some mulah at that point. The closer it got and the more people got invited and ideas got bigger the more worried I got. I mean everyone thinks I'm the best cook ever because im there friend and they love me lol. I was like uhhhhh maybe I can't pull thanksgiving off. Sunday was filled with crazy tears and emotions and me being like nope this day is going to be crap. The thought of me having a "fake" one because we wouldn't be with our family had me all torn on deep down... but I'm mama Sarah. I can't be scared. I'm tough.
Anyways  I put my feelings and tears aside and prayed long and hard about it and BAM

I woke up yesterday with the same little kid feelings of thanksgiving! I waited for the boys to awake and bounced my happy self into 272 to make the magic happen! Boy did it! They were all, well mostly, keen to help clean and so so so helpful! I told mom last night that God took over big time :)
David was like Mr Thanksgivng! he's going to be a super hubby/dad one day... just saying girls----scoop him up... Same for Jared. We did some damage in the kitchen!

Just when I was getting discouraged with the food to people ratio charlie swooped in and the boys headed to Coles only to come back with even more yummy goodness

something about " its not thanksgiving unless we have leftovers" we did and they were amazing!

Then the girls got back from the beach ( RED) and added the girly touch to the table then everyone else showed up and we DUG IN!!!

I know it may sound dumb to you but throwing a Thanksgiving for people who haven't had one or its their first from home was kinda a big deal for me. These people have held my hand through alot. They delt with me tears, fears, Late night hospital visits, countless trips to coles, CRAZY mood swings, brokeness,  hormones, medicines, surgery's, ect This was the least I could do to show everyone how Thankful I really am for them. The people that God placed here wasn't an accident, well maybe a few of us ;) but  I feel as though we are a family.

My Heart is so ready to be in Snyder but something tells me that won't be home forever and that scares me.

Saturday, November 20, 2010

Self image

I had to sit through a lecture from a friend- a skinny one btw -about weight loss for guys. 

Hello im not loosing weight for a man. 
Been there done that and bought that t shirt.

10th grade,2 weeks of Adkins torture  (no carb no cokes)  and I finally got mr perfect to ask me out:) it was prolly my Charm Or that i was a BEAST at poultry judging that made me so intriguing! Not my awesome body - 20 lbs and new pair of jeans that made him take the bait!
anyways 45 mins later we broke up at the football game and I had a hot dog, doritos, and a vanilla cream dr pepper waiting to console me ( I broke up with him though) I think I tried it once in college at SFA. ohh maybe if i was smaller hed like me.... 
Sadly I'm a grouch when I dont eat and ended up not even liking the dude.

Anyways point being I'm not 16, or some naive girl right out of hs longing for someone to love me.

It says in the bible that we are to treat our bodys a temples! If that's the case my temple is a giant greasy-cheesy dr pepper tower lol
I feel as though God has said here is a jump start to a healthier you  now keep going.

Did you know someone ask me if the surgery I had was gastric bypass? My answer was hunny I'd be a heck of a lot smaller if that was the case. 

So I've thought and prayed about it to make sure there wernt some " oh if I was skinny I'd meet my husband" crap going on in my head. 

Top 10 reasons I'm loosing weight!

1. I'm a broke college kid and everything is more expensive in oz

2. I'm surrounded by non Americans who don't live off grease like i used to.

3. Vegetarian things are yummy

4. We walk alot and I don't like being the girl huffing and puffing

5. I'm using the "funny fat girl" thing as an excuse to not fulfill the purpose and plans God has for me.

6. I Want to have babies one day

7.  Life without fast food, Mexican food, and cheddar cheese is  one of great sadness but less poundage ;)

8. There aren't clothes that fit in this country :)

9. I have more energy

10. Jesus told me to:)

The pressure to be what the world perceives as beautiful will always be a struggle for me, most likely the rest of the world struggles with it to. I'm not saying I don't have body/self confidence issues, I guess I'm airing out that stuff an trying to become a more Godly woman with the way I view myself!

Sunday, November 7, 2010

Hillsong Live Album Recording

So much is going on in my head today...
Words can't express how lucky I feel to have been a part of a gathering of believers like last night.
I can't help but think about the people who it will reach. Kids in their rooms, People in Church, Teens in their Cars, the 20 somethings who feel lost in the gap ect....

To be there was a dream of mine, not to be on the platform (which would be cool) but just to be.

In rehearsal when I saw and heard Jill sing awakening with her preggo belly I almost lost it. The desires of my heart have changed and grown so much in the past few months.

I wish Jordan and Casey could have been with me at one point I almost called them but it was the middle of the night and life can't stop evertime I get excited and wish they were here.

I yelled in Davids ear all night... He deserves and award.

I have that lost feeling again, like I'm stuck in between Snyder and Sydney and don't know which to call home. I'm calling both of them home at the moment but don't want to leave either one. I'm sure its just a feeling that will pass. I should feel at home wherever I am because I have Jesus :D

Its hot today so I'm letting the Fan blow dry my hair for me.

Grad ball is coming up and I don't know if I'm excited or not. There is a large part of me who is over joyed at the fact that I have to get all dressed up and get to go hang with my friends. Where azzz there is another part of me who doesn't want to go at all. Im trying to focus on the fact that this is one of the toughest seasons I've been through and I should jump at the chance to celebrate :)

Money- still praying for some kind of Financial miracle<<<<

If you were expecting something profound sorry, I'm trying to clear out my brain before I get to class.

TEXAS in 18 days

Thursday, November 4, 2010

Mens Conference!

Since high school I've  been one of the Guys or so it seems! So of course I wasn't surprised that God has once again placed me in life and fellowship with dudes... Girls to but this week is about Men

This week is mens conference.

God has blessed me with some amazing guy friends who challenge me in my everyday life. From the moment I got sick and even before they have opened their door and kitchen to me( and everyone else for that matter)

God has placed each one of them on my heart at a different time this week and it's been awesome to pray for them and encourage them this week. Im not good with words but I can cook. I can't tell them how much I appreciate their friendship but I can make some brownies! I have a hard time asking them how they are when it comes to their lives but I can cook and pray lol!!!
I pray that they feel valued each and everyday. So i as thinking you could help pray to.

Pray for their futures!
Pray for financial provision
Pray for wisdom
I pray that they have a massive encounter with God that will change their life radically! That the Lord would reveal himself and that they would be better equipped to be the Godly men they already are!!!


Each one has specific callings and purposes on their life and I'm so glad that I get to be on the journey with them for a little bit of time!