Monday, November 30, 2009

Nope Just Friends

Ever notice that when you are a single girl in a married/coupled world they always try to set you up?

I sang a a neighboring church yesterday and had a few people (blue haired lady's) ask if I had met Mr New Youth Minister...... I understand that I need a wonderful Godly Man, but one who works at another church and has a Girlfriend just seem to throw up some Flags for me.... Don't get me wrong, he's tall( my number 2 criteria) and probably a wonderful guy but he's taken.

My next point being that just because you sing, play, lead Worship with, go eat with or go to Wally world with a guy doesn't mean you are Dating. everyone knows what happens when you ASSUME

It is outrageous to have 40+ people ask a guy I sing with if we are dating. Same goes for the Guy who played Piano with me yesterday, I told about 8 people................. Nope just friends

Who knows maybe one day ( soon please Lord) one of the Blue Haired Lady's will actually introduce me to mr. right... but until that day comes I will keep saying "Nope Just Friends"

Blue Haired Ladys = the Senior Adults at church who just want you to be as happy as they are!

Monday, November 23, 2009

St. johns wort

Dear St Johns Wort,
I should have taken your name as a warning, no one should take a medicine that has the word "wort" in it. Yet I'm stupid and I did. I appreciate you not having accruate warning lables on the kind of damage you can do to ones body, thus allowing me to spend a week in bed hardly being able to move. My hair really needed mass amounts of thinning also so once again thank you for helping with that. I'm sure that my neurologist would extend his gratitude to you as well...
Thanks for giving me an interesting week...

Exciting things in my life lately!

skye and I went to DFW to the Lady Antebellum Concert! It was amazing!This is our chi-wienie Bella. She's awesome and provides for hours of entertainment!

Monday, November 9, 2009

The voice within that I didn't know I had.....

When I was younger I couldn't wait to be in youth. I wanted to sing on praise team in the FLC, but when that time came I was told I wasn't good enough. The end. I never ask to sing in church again.

about a year ago God started some major work on me. One of the things he worked on was me using my gift that He gave me to Glorify him. so I slowly started singing again...

well yesterday I faced one of my greatest fears...


It seems petty to some poeple that I would be nervous to sing across the street for the youth but not for big church, or even across the street at the methodest church with a bunch of people I don't know.

That bulding was assosaited with some of my deepest scars so for me to sing over there was terrifying.

Sat night while waiting to practice I got down on my knees and just let go of all of my fears, I didn't feel anything really so I was like oh well, im hungry. We left to go eat then got back and set up ect... all the while me feeling uneasy and on the verge of running from the building, i knew I had given it to God but thats not an instant easy button.

We sang a few songs, then we got to one of my new favorites. I shut my eyes and let go . I realize then that I had just reached deep down past all of the crud and pulled out that little girl who wanted to sing oever there...... after doing so jordan and ben were just like " welp I think you should do that alone" it jus tfelt so good.
Ben later told me if I sang like a pansy him and courtney would come after me... granted I kinda sang like a pansy on sunday morning but it didn't matter anymore.

My joy carried over to big church were I kept wanting to dance... Its so hard to keep it inside once you when through the trouble of letting it out!

with all that rambling being said, I don't know if I will do it again.

With Gods help I reached into my heart and let out the voice that I never believed I had...

Wednesday, November 4, 2009

blog challenge

So last Monday I was having lunch with Courtney and we were discussing our blogs. I was telling her how much i liked just getting everything out in the open even if no one reads it. So I'm going to try really hard to blog a few times a week!