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And the God of all grace, who called you to his eternal glory in Christ, after you have suffered a little while, will himself restore you and make you strong, firm and steadfast- 1 Peter 5:10 ( thanks casey)

This week has been crazy, crazy, crazy. As you know I've been experiencing some 'female issues" for awhile now. It seems like every time I turn around something down there is malfunctioning.  I went in for a normal ultrasound and left after an emergency small needle biopsy was done. Talk about scarry but more so annoying... I actually kicked a nurse but its okay cause I gave her an EXCHANGE card :) Don't know what that is? Google hillsong eXchange :) Anyways My mom, close friends, and roomies and I had a rough night just praying and thinking about outcomes.  Dr. Theo ( my specialist) called this morning to inform me that its not ovarian cancer yet I have a high level of something called CA-125. ( They throw the C word around alot here, a little extreme but scary none the less) Also that I have a large cyst/mass/tumor ( I've heard all three words, pretty sure its a cyst with solids in it???) on my right ovary just waiting to burst and cause a whirwind of problems that needs to be removed.... which brings me to now. ( I spared some gory details )

Where do I want to have surgery?

Whats cheapest?

Who has better healthcare?

Who's going to hold my hand?

Where do I have the most support?

School? School? SCHOOL???? 

MONEY?

Can I even fly without it rupturing?

so you may be thinking woah thats alot. Well it is alot to take in but... but...... but..... God is my ultimate provider, healer, ya know all the big christianese words but seriously. I'm okay. Gods got me  no matter what I decide or what happens... so I should take a few days spend in fervent prayer and just think about the bigger picture and try to make decisions that will benefit me and the call that God has on my life. 

I feel like an emotional time bomb. So if your here in Sydney and I seem standoffish, giddy, tired, or any other extreme emotion for me just give me some room to think and I should be back to my normal self in no time. If you enjoy my crazy facebook post please excuse the moodyness or extreme bible verses < i've never understood why people care about the changes you put on YOUR status, seems silly to me but oh well. Yall know the way I deal with things is to cry it out and I haven't done that yet, so I'm going to take some time to process all with junk with my Savior but wanted to let yall know what is going on! 

pray           pray           pray 

 James 5:16......the effectual fervent prayer of a righteous man avails much.